I'm Once Nth Before..

S.I.S.T.E.M

2011-06-14T22:03:00.006+08:00

im obsessed in things with GOOD SYSTEMS

i like to c things to be in order

i like to have things to be in control

i like analyzing things(though im not too good in it yet)

i like to see things worked up with QUALITY

as a good SYSTEM leads to a Better Output

so i often got curious..

on how ppl run sth else successfully

A business

An event

A relationship

and oh yea,i enjoy forecasting an output in several diffrent solutions ^^

some1 who was once important to me said:

我讨厌你的想太多

simple but powerful impact =D

hmm

true..

yet

i get to realize

this feeling developed since i was young

i do recall on, how:

i hate it

when he does things without planning

i hate it

when he makes decisions without caring for others..

i hate it

when he never listen to others,when he did sth wrong

which i called that EGO..

i hate it

he just expect others to settle his leftovers after causing some problems

and

i hate it most

when he tends to run away from problems, instead facing them..

hoping them solved, miraclely~

and these became a guideline to me in life..

*I will be a diffrent a beter person*

I've always believe so.. and I will be working on that..

Happy Fathers Day

O.O

2011-06-12T19:43:00.002+08:00

我不是一个好的领导

过于心软

过于照顾大体的感受

什么是都要包山包海

目光有时放得太短

要求因大体随着减低

影响了效果与成果

到头来还是需要为自己收拾手尾 =C

T-shirt与庆功宴

大家都忘了吗？

-SHORT,FIRM,TheEnd-

2011-06-06T18:51:00.003+08:00

JAPANESE你鸡蛋糕！！！

-.-继续压抑我的心情～

发泄完毕。。

kthanksbye~

Happy Birthday Dad =)

2011-05-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Now.. He is Officially 53 years old =)

It has been really long..

Since we last had dinner together like this..

its event sounded like ages

where we had dinner together outside,Together.

I guess..

since i went to secondary school

and now uni..

studying far enough

sis having her own life..

when mum started working again

and dad with his work as usual..

and bro being bz with his social circles..

this family used to eat according to our own time..

its really rare for us to sit down together.. to even have a meal..

unless.. its a Chinese new year(where it is a holiday)

I was really upset..

last night,when we realised its dad's birthday

and i suggested to celebrate it..

Together

as a FAMILY

yet Mum and Sis doesn't seemed to be interested enough to cooperate with my plannings..

sis have is leaving home to visit her bf's father in a hospital

mum is acting like the dont-care-style again

The feeling i experienced.. was brought to this day..

However..

which the effort with my bro and I

we manage to get things in plan!!

and we will be heading for dinner after my work~ =D

dad was quite dissapointed..

as my little sis was not around

*cuz he was thinking,the dinner was like a birthday celebration for him*

after lunch

my bro went to tuition

and i drove my parents back home..

on da way back home..

i talked on topics which are able to connect us..

yes.. Nibong Tebal--our h.o.m.e

we talked on the case where a person was encountered by 12cuts..

阿牛and the movie shooting crew here..

the carnival which will be held soon..

etc etc..

this is the 1st time my parents dint quarelled on the car!!!!

(usually my mum will pick up a fight with my dad when they are together-its in her nature xD)

we all headed home--safely..

and it seemed like..

thats the end of my dad's 53th birthday celebration..

-at lease my mum thought so too-

haha..

then!! its my time to plan the suprise!~

my sis is finally back home,with the cake as promised!!

when she walked pass the living room

dad's face was so.. Hmm.. Hmm.. (-.-) <---sth lidat

haha~ its his birthday.. and this girl is not around to be with him.. as a complete family celebration

of cuz he is angry! xD

we have all our wishes and signature signed on the card~

and..

-->

briefing on the plan to my siblings~

-->

distributing assignments to every of them

as dad was watching TV at the living room~

Mum(VIP) will just need to standby sitting on the chair..

I(GIMIK) will be the person preparing the cake and candles behind

Sister(RUNNER) will be the person to signal me..

and my Bro(USHER) will be the person to invite Dad(VVIP) to our dining room~

orait!

All lights off!!!

dad is on position!!

and Jeng Jeng Jeng~
*Happy Birthday Song-with me bring out the cake with lighted candles*

Mum and Dad was really suprised!!

haha

cuz mum was not briefed about our complete plan

and dad never knew a simple tips of our plan!!!

this is my 1st time..

celebrating Birthday for my dad..

with all family members along..

this is our 1st time singing a birthday song..

after such a long time..

this is the 1st time..

where i can c Mum laughing happily,naturally

when dad is along as well

and

dad was shy! and suprised!

and i saw a broad smile on his face....

I WAS REALI CONTENTED

he blew off the candles..

and cut the cake..

while my sister.. passing her our birthday card(with wishes on it)

and finally..

Pics of special moments with my family members..

*i can c tears in dad's eyes*

moments like this..

will last..

as pictures will be able to capture down and freeze these moments.. with written words..

-*Happy Birthday Daddy.. Always stay Healthy, Stay Happy*-

Best wishes,

Jafon

Pics with my Bro and Parents #1

Pics with my Bro and Parents #2

Pics with my Sis and Parents #1

Pics with my Sis and Parents #2

Pics with my Bro and Parents #3

Birthday Card Cover~

Unfolded Birthday Card~

Our Best Wishes to Dad <3

yeap your rite.. my Handsome Dad And Stunning Mum~

Me,Bro,Sis,Mum-->For Dad^^

莫名其妙的伤感

2011-05-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

一直以来

家里都不会有一家人一起庆祝生日的习惯

也一直以来

生日没被家人记得，偶尔被忘记

曾经为了这件事伤心过

可是那也已经是很久以前的事情了

因为。“习惯”了

然而，随着年龄的增长

也越来越明白

一家人在一起的时间实在太宝贵了。。

毕竟一年里，在家里的日子实在太少了

父母年龄也都随着岁月增长着

因此

每当任何特别节日

兄妹们都会尽量配合庆祝

然而

在这家里

我们似乎有些偏心了

每逢母亲节，妈妈生日时

我们都会不忘为妈妈庆祝

我们，往往都忘了

爸爸的生日，父亲节

刚才，父亲突然冒出了一句：

‘明天我不工作’

那时我们脑袋都出现了：‘？？’

他接着说：明天我生日 =）

顿时，我伤心了起来。。

十多年来

我们家里从来不庆祝父亲的生日与父亲节

那种心酸。。

不懂到底如何形容

父亲今年，过了生日就是53岁

这些年来

他总是忙着工作

太少和家里沟通交流

我想，他也意识到与孩子之间开始有代沟了

我也知道他很努力的尝试和我们聊天

我也知道，想在，他也意识到自己不年轻了。。

真的觉得自己很不孝

理性来想时，我很明白他的一举一动

可是，我就是不明在为何自己的态度就是。。

想到每一次为妈妈庆祝时

因平时都不帮父亲庆祝，他心里肯定会难受吧

他需要的

是关心。。

他期望的

是关怀。。

明天放工后会一起去吃晚餐

孝道，尽早开始吧。。

advices anyone?

2011-05-10T13:29:00.003+08:00

Seriously,i hate discouraging words..

especially from my family members..

those terms tends to come in whenever im trying hard on somethings

that's why i don't really like

for them to know what am i up-to sometimes.

I know I know..

you will be saying: they are just caring for you..

Just these are the time I'm hoping for chances..

i don like them to see the Its-okay-faces when i failed

and showing me the : NVM face..

"its okay la.. just sit at home.. and goyang la.. Even u don get a job,its okay"

this reali picked up my nerves whenever i hear this..

yes.. its not their fault..

cuz i never voice out what are playing in my mind actually

Im looking for recgonization.. I wana prove myself well-worthed!

and i do need Money..

cuz i do not wan to spend a single penny from my family for the coming semester!

(i cant believe my ears when they asked me: Hey J~ are u in dept? why so worry for job while the holiday is so long~)

---haha sorry buddies.. i have my own plans..

today's output:

Advertisment Designer: Pending--(usually failed as it's requiring experts in PS)

MarvellousFrointier: Tekstile Industry--(RM600/month--requiring longterm permanent workers)

Mr.Poh(Acc Clerk),Accounting Firm: Maximum RM500

ShanHua Travelling Agensi: Clerk-Pending(but requiring female employee-so failed)

So the options left now will be:

1. Full House-Production Operator

action: attend for the walk in interview

2. Search for Covoza Company: request for vacanncy

3. Take the accountant clerk job, and learn somthing thru it..

4. Miracles?

Do advice me..

9.5.2011

2011-05-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

Called 4 company today.

huhu.. turns up all with futile, 1 pending..

Not to penalize anyone.

But, now i do realize how worthless undergraduates are..

as when it comes to comparison

an employer tends to get a lower level for the job

as usually.. undergraduates are always demanding much higher.

All of the sudden..

sth came in mind..

I thought of, i deserve somethings beter then the current job offered

I can perform much better, if I'm given an opportunity.

We tend to demand for more, as we are different and better then the others.

where i suddenly recall.. the symtomps that im experiencing now

fits all the signs mentioned in a book where i've read way long before..

We tended to fight back,when we are offered for a job with a low price

However..

How you tink you should answer when the HR manager asked:

what's your experience in the filed u applied?

Do recall..

which in fact..

we have not much experience in the workplace..

So..

Why an employer should pay more..

when they are getting the same quality of work with different qualification

*something to bear in mind-starting from 0%*

With the fact mentioned above..

I do reali understand what are the only qualifications i have..

some might say: you have lots of experience in programs in ur UNI

YES! that's quite a fact..

yet, thats not what the market needed..

No.. at lease not in my field..

(its diffrent unless we are in the Management field or HR department)

so sometimes..

i do regret..

as i tink mayb i should get myself into some related business fields..

PR,Management,HR mayb..

at lease i know.. i like to mingle with people..

i like socializing..

Marketing might b an alternative.. but its not the no.1 choice for me so far.

Sigh..

still wondering is there any possible chance for me to get involved in similar job fields..

However

Its about OPPORTUNITY and GRABBING IT at the RIGHT TIME!

i know.. i will need to be much more aggressive..

i need to be a fast learner..

i need to be initiative and innovative..

and the most important of all factors: understanding 人性！

Proceeding in my jobsearch again tomorow..

was actualli kinda fustrated when some comments

it might sounded like a joke to others..

but i do know he/she means it..

i was fust.. because being an old friend.. she don reali know me well..

yet not blamming her..

i have my own reasons.. so its ok if other's don understand me..

i have my planning..

i have my own difficulties..

i've foresighted my future roughly..

so its about time for action to fix my potential problems..

RM600 as a production operator?

Hmm... unless im really out of choices.. i will be walking in for the interview tomorrow~

reali hope to get some job with RM800 and above..

and doing something usefull.. where i get to make use some of my skills...

just if i get the chance =)

All the best luck again for me tomorrow..

Wish me the best^^

Nitez~

1.29a.m.

2011-05-09T01:30:00.002+08:00

就和标题一样

凌晨1.29分

很努力的逼自己睡觉

翻来翻去，滚来滚去（突然想起“我没有人要”这个quote)

其实不关事

开始重新规划，设立我的短期目标~

2011-05-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

回到家里，今天是第六天了

除了前面2天去了槟岛，和国大因为有爱的朋友游玩

其他的4天都在家里当米虫

这几天来，自己每一天都泡在网上JobSearch

希望自己能找到一些不错的工作

这几天来，打了几个电话，发了几个电邮，发了几封短讯

可是没有一样中~

呵呵无所谓~我会继续找的

其实妈妈好像有点没太鼓励我找工作

可能她太疼我了吧

竟然，还说：不用找了啦~ 在家里就好~

呼呼，妈，你孩子我就是不想当米虫啊。。

在这几天的观察与分析

发现了现在我们大学生，特别是国大生的技能太少了

特别是我们的语言能力：英文

突然，脑袋出现了一些画面

发现到自己能力真的很有限

因此，这几个月，自己相当希望可以到和自己主修的课程有关的行业工作

可是经过我的调查与分析

肯要我们这种人的公司太少了

我也明白，其中一个原因是，我们暑假时间太短

当他们把我们训练好了，我们就得走了，多么吃亏啊~

有几位人事部的负责人都让我知道，要实习时再回来~

呵呵，所以我看我在这方面的期望得暂时放下

话说回来，今晚特别心血来潮

就上网下载了2011/2012年的planner

参考了国大的时间表，开始策划起来明年大概的时间表

也同时预算了下个学期大概的开销

经过了一大堆的分析后

初步预算，我需要多一笔过千的后备在（不打算公开详细的预算帐）

而已现在我有的时间

最低估计，我必须在下个月开始

每个月月入清赚RM800.00（工作性质星期1-5）

如果我能够在星期6，日找到多余的工作（如：Promoter）

那这么一来，我会在未来的新学期不会有缺钱的问题（如果没有什么意外/多余开销）

所以，目标很清楚了，也懂自己需要3个月内赚到多少钱

也联想了，假如我无法实现计划，会为我过后带来了什么后果

破釜沉舟

剩下的，只是欠了东风

吹我在这几个星期内为自己找到一个稳定的短期工作了~

现在的努力，是一种储存能力的行动。

希望这个暑假，会过得有意义些

29.4.2011(Life)

2011-04-30T03:30:00.002+08:00

Its 330am now...

im totally exhausted.. but just..

determined to write this note down..

as im sure im not able to write this out when feelings fade..

(honestly.. i cant even understand what im writing)

Title: Life(summarry bullet form)
-4hour sleep

-soso done lab paper

-helping friends in shifting their things into cars~

-finish lunch

-ktam@pasar seni to deal the t-shirt dealer agian

-met a friend from UKM and his *special friend~

--->hence get to know a new friend^^

-stupid things:i went into a females washroom O.O

---> kena ingat im kalerwolf pulak!

-reaching pasar seni.. boosss not around: OMG

--->unidentitied status of the t-shrit again

-get to do window shopping around central market for the 1st time...(as im trying to calm and neutralize my emoness)

-help a stranger to carry up her lauguage on my way heading to the railway station~

-missing the train heading to ukm in front of me..

-finally got into the train.. having to listen to a funny conversation between a famili~

-6.30: miracle happened... a friend offer to pick me back from KTM station T.T

-7.00:departing to MidValley again~ wow! haha

-In the end.. i BANG myself on a wall.. so painfull now =(

Conclusion:

A day of suffering from hunger,exhausted mentally and physically..

Yet some interesting things happened in between..

which makes me.. today.. its like a day resembling our entire life..

Bitterness in sweetness.. and Sweetness in bitterness..

Phew~ wat a day..

A refresh of memories..

2011-04-22T14:07:00.005+08:00

All of sudden.. these poems came in mind..

it has been a long time..

yet everything seems fresh for me..

so would just like to share one of them..

what we actually learned before..

and how much we remembered~

SONNET 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimmed,

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:

But thy eternal summer shall not fade,

Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,

Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,

So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,

So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Sorry because it's a no..

2011-04-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

Pesta Convo..

i would like to assume it as one of the biggest event in UKM

where the grand ceremony will be conducted..

a ceremony where you and me will be experiencing in time to come..

-CONVOCATION DAY-

Being offered for one of it's high post..

no doubt its indeed an honor..

In fact, I'm proud if im given a chance to participate in such grand event..

We, especially chinese do not get chances lidis..

to hold post at that level..

however that's not the main point..

it's the challange.. and experience that i will be gaining

throughout the participation..

Im always accepting challenges..

as i know it's a learning process..

and I stand a chance to improve myself more..

I do thought a lot for this semester..

i will not wan my 3rd year's life to be dull and boring.

i wanted spices in my final year!!

i wanted things to be interesting,and mayb archieve sth even great in my uni life!

However sad case...

i've rejected on the spot..

There are some particular reasons..

having "perkampungan" for 4-5months++ is not the main issue..

im still young enuf to afford for the time..

but the major reason is..

yes.. its bout money..

being financial free is always my aim..

i refuse to get even a single penny from my family..

and im practising this since my 2nd semester during 1st year.

however surviving solely on only PTPTN loan is indeed insufficient for an average local uni student like me,not in year 2011.

How i survived?

haha.. personal saving.. from work..

sad case is..

i couldnt afford for the living cost 4-5month.. dependant-free from my family..

if i reali accepted the post..

another reason is..

Family..

i've neglected my parents for a long time..

a reali long time..

i do strongly feel that i have the duty..

to fulfill my responsibility as a son,as a brother..

Its always hard for you to choose between 2important things..

Too bad..

There's no undo button in life..

2011-03-24T22:39:00.003+08:00

It has been long i last used english for any purpose..
even blogging~ i tend to use chinese..
i suppose i will take this chance to catch up and revise back my language power..

Im haunted by weird weird draems recently..
i do not know what leads to this..
but i suppose it because the things happened few days ago..

*
Hot air bellon festive..
one of the well known event at putrajaya
which have attracted thousands of visitors
where i am one of them..
cameras,DSLR is everywhere..

My 1st time experience..
started with dissapointment..
where it was raining heavily when we planned to go..
but things changed when we finally have the sun back shining~
we are having photo sessions
snapping here and there~
witnessing the setting up of hotair ballons
and even watch hot air ballons crash to one another LIVE IN FRONT OF OUR EYES!!
Phew,thats was reali an experience~

overally it was a good experience for me..
even get to know 2new friends..
where then we had planned to have our dinner at "7-happiness"

as usual.. its crowded..
yet we are lucky enough for us to get ourselves sufficient seats..

one sad thing happened...
a friend of mine who carried her bag..
planned to go to the washroom..
i've volunteered to help to hold on her bag..
yet..
without much consideration..
i've placed in just on a chair..
leaving it under care of one person..
and went to the washroom as well...

badthings happened..
when my friend is back..
she failed to find her camera in her bag..
=(
it was stolen......
which i suppose it happens in 3-5mins time.....

at 1st.. we were hoping its onli a joke from one of ur friends..
till the end..
we are not able to find any sign of it..
seeing her face expression..
im feeling extremely guilty..
things wouldnt happen if i dint b a kepo to help to hold her bag..
things wouldnt happen if i dint just leave the bag rite there without care..

she's strong..
she could have cried.. but she dint..
she could have put the blame on me.. but she dint..

i tried to apologize..
but i know it wouldnt help any better...

just.. i am indeed sorry...

无聊与平凡

2011-03-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

19.3.2011 ABADI'11
Event 终于圆满结束了
成就感
不知为何，并没有太大
是我投入的太少了吗？
还是本省要求太高了
回想起来
经历的东西有太多
很多时候单打独斗，挑战自己能力与耐心的事情还蛮多的
虽然吞了不少苦水
然而在这个过程中
我感觉自己又成长了
不管思维上，还是能力上

当中最享受的是莫过于认识了一群很好玩的朋友
Syaza,Fathirah,Teh等等的
让我生活圈子扩大了不少
也不懂有时我过于严肃的表情
是否吓怕了你们~尤其是1styear的EXCO朋友们~
呵呵不好意思啦
不是我严肃不是我凶，只是我办起事情来时会看起来比较认真~

在这其中，也得感谢我一些学姐们给我的意见与支持
也感谢愿意为我分担问题的MT们~
当然还有是我的coursemate~
很多时候我上课都在游魂的~多谢他们常常为我提醒功课~
^^
assignment一罗罗~
然而朋友也不能忘记
因为有爱。SS Dinner。Makan Wei。民华的朋友~
我来了~

我们都没有资格说累

2010-12-15T16:22:00.002+08:00

原来有个好帮手
是那么的重要

行动上的帮忙往往都会比嘴巴说的有意义
路遥知马力
慢慢地就开始看到某些人的pattern

归宿感
可能是这个元素缺乏
造成了大家都是我行我素
一些人还不错
还会自动自发帮忙别人

可是多数人都会以自己为中心

可是我也没怪你们
因为
泥菩萨过江

其实我知道有些人想帮忙
可是有时候他们就是
没有这方面的能力吧

只是有时候会很累
然而
我和马来同胞反而
对他们诉苦
来得比较自然

呼呼
有谁来和我分担~

纯粹发发泄^^

知足常乐

2010-12-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

刚才
我在检查成绩的时候
我喊出来了><

后来才看到了
原来，我看到的
是去年sem1的成绩
哈哈

这个学期成绩还算过的去
虽然看到成绩
心情并没有起伏很大
没有太多的开心
也没有太多的伤心
所以，我想我是因该知足
毕竟成绩进步了

然而我想
我今天会比较开心的
是看到了活动上的进展
一部分的部门进度还算很快的
有些就得加把劲了

虽然，这个星期的集训
连一个华人女生都没有回来
然而
这衬托了一些非常积极的马来同胞

大家的心态
司马昭之心，路人皆知

我只希望
这个集训，能更热闹些
快乐些
没有舍，就没有得
大家加油了

沉默是金，无话可说便不须加以解释，保持沉默又有何不对呢？

2010-12-04T11:05:00.003+08:00

其实刚才的怒火真的很大
生气
是因为他/她的态度
失望
是因为他/她的心态

集训快要开始了
这几天都在努力的想
要如何策划出集训大流程
以确保一切工作能在预期内完成

6号开始集训
7号是我们马来同胞的假期，也被视为公共假期
而多数人只会在8号才回来
扣除了这3天与其余的星期6和星期日（4天）
14天只剩下7天
会有一小部分的人会在星期一回到来了
可是很肯定地是，人数上会是少于一半
会议无法进行
可是还是需要一些短短的讲解
不然对准时回来的大家很不公平

现在的问题是
2个星期的集训，只会剩下1个
工作是否能够在预期内完成
毕竟是在于各位的速度与进度
社团的工作时间将定于每天的
9am-5pm
休息时间定为12pm-2pm
总共6小时工作时间
开始于星期3，8号

对于这次的集训
我不了解大家对他的看法
有人告诉我
太长了
用来完成他们的工作
绰绰有余
我也不否认
一些部门，会在集训时来得轻松
因为主要工作都会在日后增加

然而
你们会在14号才回来
而且没有任何人告诉过我
反而自己是刚巧因为在看别人面子书时才发现的
我不是因为
你们没有当面让我知道
而生气
2个exco
都那么迟才回来
一个代表也没有
那这4天的进展谁来负责？
这也对于其他的准时来到exco公平吗？

一个是沙捞越人，这个我能体谅
另一位
如果你想说没有朋友，而也坚持这么迟才回来
也不让我知道一声的话
那我对你们的责任感太失望了

这个活动
如果真的要把它办好
单单靠着我一人的力量
一个人的意见是不够的
一个好的团体
是需要综合了大家的良好意见
才会成为一个团体的成绩
而不是一个人！

华人在这个团体里占了少数
大家都是华人
少了沟通的障碍
必然工作起来会来得比较的有效率
如果大家都因为个人利益
因为要clear unit才参与这项活动的
这个没了灵魂的活动
做了也没有意思

不想再多说
期待你们的表现

再次感叹：沉默是金，无话可说便不须加以解释，保持沉默又有何不对呢？

体验

2010-12-01T23:22:00.004+08:00

’提心吊胆‘这４个字
似乎好久没出现在我的字典里面了
可能这几年来
被训练做事情都有规划
所以往往面对的事情结果都会在自己预料范围内

29.11.10
让我重温会这个感觉
由于这天本来是我出发到PulauKetam的一天
945am的巴士
最多15分钟的车程

然而不懂是不是平时没有常拜神的关系
早上的打鱼造成了大塞车
不用紧
一路上还是一直红灯连连
也不用紧
竟然！我遇上了火车！
哇老
其实我很想飞车的
可是妈妈在车上，不得不循规蹈矩，呼呼
还好最后还是被闹上追巴士的悲剧

好啦，终于上到巴士了
安定下来了
10am开车的话
一路上不停
和看着路牌的距离
预测车在最多的5个小时到达目的地
5个小时，不长也不短
就这样迷迷糊糊的　
４个小时多就过去了
当我张开眼睛，看见KL central距离不到10km时
人顿时精神了起来
可是，巴士没有朝着那个方向，反而向着bkt jalil
最后，它真的停在 bkt jalil 了！
瓦老，当时卖票给我的时候竟然还跟我说下KL central
我还跟她triple comfirm
==算了，与其埋怨，我便搭车到bdr Tasik selatan,过后再到KL central

当时3pm,而pulauKetam最后一躺的船是在5.45pm
一路上
我提心吊胆
KTM又出了名‘准时’的
好在，330pm让我顺利到达KL central
然而要到portKlang是需要大概1.30小时
当我一到哪儿，发现336pm火车就会走人了
可是当时有责任在身
必须帮忙学员买车票
这么一来
我错过了那一躺车
然而，很感恩的
下一躺在4.15pm到达了！！

买了车票
上了火车，任务算是完成了
在车上算了算
一共有１８站
一站平均用力５分钟
就如何预测一样，1。30小时就能够到达目的地

一路上太空闲，一直在算时间，算剩下几站

525pm,火车到了站！而且比我预测的早了十分钟
一路上一直被大家催
都感觉得到大家期待我到来的热情
顿时自己也兴奋了起来
下了站，问了方向
我便大步大步得跨向码头
不到5分钟，船便到了码头

码头

我达的船
港口的景色

550pm船也顺利的开了
终于，我整个人可以都放松了下来
安心了下来~
因为知道这一来肯定到达PulauKetam了
一路上还一直在想到底要怎样做一些故事作弄他们误会我来不及到达了

大约一小时过去了
终于船开到了一个码头
我深深吸了一口气
拿起行李便下船去了
心里呐喊：
PULAU KETAM!!
我到了！！！

下了船，我便开始打听当地小学到底怎么走
怎么知道
我获知了一个大消息
就是
我
上
错
了
岛
!!!
这是尝试想喊船司机停下来
可是当我看过去
剩下的只有海浪

=______________=

无话可说
心情当时根本就是down到了极点
因为那船是当天的最后一趟
这岛没有酒店
没有住宿的地方

我本来还想问看我有办法走过去吗
后来才得知
要去到pulau Ketam
除非我有本事游过去
不然是不可能到达的

我一路不死心
还是抱着希望
我坚信靠着我这张嘴巴
我是有办法为自己找出一条生路的
我也同时抱着希望
希望还会有最后一辆船（当地居民说有可能还有）
同时在街上问问到底有没有可能能找到水上德士
最后得来的答案
是没有的
当时又累（搭了10个小时的船，火车和车）
又饿（一整天都没有吃过东西）
又绝望
想到自己困在一个岛上
有没有可以住宿的地方
因为有爱的大家不停地为我打电话
可是大家也没有对策
也只能为我祝福祈祷

天慢慢地黑
心也慢慢地灰了起来
正当这个时候
一通电话！
让我重振希望
原来大佬竟然得到了董事长朋友的帮助
送了一辆快艇来把我载到PulauKetam
当时我真的感恩极了
最后也顺利到达了小学
顺利地看了他们的闭幕典礼
顺利地安顿下来

这一次
本身体会与体验了不少
虽然很多事情，都能在自己预测范围内
然而我们生活中有太多的万一了
之前，我一直认为
这世界，我一个人也是能顺顺利利的面对世界
然而这一次，让我体会到了什么是朋友的帮忙

29.11.10
我最多灾多难的一天
五条港
也会是我会一直记得的岛屿

惜福
来是偶然，去是必然，处之泰然，活得自然

莫名的感动

2010-11-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

拿起了吉他
开始浏览有关网站
找着找着
想起了一首钢琴曲子

它叫做-路小雨
是不能说的秘密中的一首钢琴曲子

第一次听一首歌
听到有些感动的感觉
这种感觉
伤感的莱，让我感恩
让我觉得，能够很健康地活在这世界真的很美妙

本人真的非常喜欢它的旋律
因为很喜欢
所以找来了吉他的谱子

真的好喜欢，可惜自己技术还不到家

路小雨
http://handoyomia.com/1/luxiaoyu.pdf
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHqql76qOW8&feature=related

第一次学会看谱子
淡水海边
http://www.ccjt.net/wy_html/6926.htm

很感恩*

There's no1 to talk to when i needed one.

2010-11-23T16:25:00.003+08:00

==//////
i suppose this is the time i hope to get opinions from others.
this is the time i hope i can share my problems with my commitee
but i tink i can hardly get any now..
(no reply from them? hahaha,what to do,every1 should be in an holiday mood now)

I was given a 心理准备
to ready myself, to know that i will have to resend my Proposal.
which is veri OMG for me now..
cuz as i know there will not b any comitee back in our Lovely KAB now
I even know Porposal for Pesta ANgpow is there,Proposal of ABC is there is already there,but none for ABADI.. huhuhu

im told that they will keep trying on finding my proposal..
but i can hear the percentage of possibility in finding it from her tone.
having less than 2weeks time now.

Not to complain or
blame anyone now,
wanted to blame myself..
but i can find no reason to do so ( as i clearly know its not me who caused this to happen)

what i can do now is only pray that they will be finding my proposal soon enough.
yet looks like,
i stil need someone to help me to summit my new porposal to the office =/
time is running short..

thinking of going back UKM earlier to settle the things myself...
just if i know to teleport.. sigh..

人缘不够好，自我检讨

2010-11-23T01:07:00.001+08:00

一個男人在外工作20年，終於要回家了，老闆問他：你是要20年的工資還是要3句忠告？(來自網路的分享)

by 沈宗翰 on Wednesday, November 17, 2010 at 12:19am

一個男人在外工作20年，終於要回家了，老闆問他：你是要20年的工資還是要3句忠告？男人說我明天上路，明早給您答案好嗎？老闆說可以。當晚男人未眠…早晨，他對老闆說：我要3個忠告。於是老闆給他3句話。

一、不要試圖尋找不可能的捷徑，世上沒有便宜的事，只有腳踏實地才是最好的方法…無論做何事。

二、不要對明知不是好事的事過分好奇，有可能你會因此而喪命。

三、不要在衝動時做任何決定，否則這個決定就有可能成為你一輩子的遺憾。

說完老闆給男人一些錢和三個麵包，並叮囑：最大的麵包在到家後才能吃。

男人上路了…他走了好幾天…把第一個麵包吃了一半了，沒過多久遇到一個路口，他打聽：請問到**走哪條路近？路人甲：走小路吧，近。路人乙：走大路吧，安全。他迫不急待要與妻子見面，於是走了小路。走了沒多久就聽到有路人說附近鬧山賊，於是他想起了老闆的第一個忠告：不要試圖尋找捷徑。於是他回頭去走那條大路。又走了幾天，第二個麵包也吃了一部分了…他找到一家極便宜的客棧投宿。半夜聽見有女子哭聲，他睡不下。於是決定出門看看。這時他想到了第二個忠告：不要對明知不是好事的事過分好奇。於是他又睡下了。第二日起程時，店家驚道：你還活著？！他不解，遂問原由。店家說他有個瘋女兒，發病時用哭聲引人出來再將其殺害，昨晚投宿的客人只有你一個活著。男人長歎：啊…

又走了幾天，當第二個麵包吃完時他已離家不遠了。他更加激動了。天剛黑下來沒多久，他就走到了自己的村子。到家時他剛準備敲門，卻聽到屋裡有男人的聲音。他氣極了，拿起一把砍柴刀就準備沖進屋子將那男的殺掉。但這時他想到了第三個忠告：不要在衝動時做任何決定，可能這個決定會讓你後悔一輩子。於是他冷靜下來，在屋外坐了一夜。第二天早上他很早就敲開了門，妻子見他回來十分高興。但他卻很冷漠：那個男人是誰？他妻子笑曰：那是我們的兒啊…你走後沒多久我就…這時他發現這個年輕小夥竟和自己長得相似極了。父子初次見面，相擁而泣…一陣關切過後男人拿出第三個麵包準備和妻、子一齊分享…切開之後卻發現20年的工資全在裡面。所以我們做任何事都要考慮清楚否則到最後後悔的是自己!
成大事必備9種能力、9種手段、9種心態

一：沉穩
（1）不要隨便顯露你的情緒。
（2）不要逢人就訴說你的困難和遭遇。
（3）在徵詢別人的意見之前，自己先思考，但不要先講。
（4）不要一有機會就嘮叨你的不滿。
（5）重要的決定儘量有別人商量，最好隔一天再發佈。

（6）講話不要有任何的慌張，走路也是。
二：細心
（1）對身邊發生的事情，常思考它們的因果關係。
（2）對做不到位的執行問題，要發掘它們的根本癥結。
（3）對習以為常的做事方法，要有改進或優化的建議。
（4）做什麼事情都要養成有條不紊和井然有序的習慣。

（5）經常去找幾個別人看不出來的毛病或弊端。
（6）自己要隨時隨地對有所不足的地方補位。
三：膽識
（1）不要常用缺乏自信的詞句
（2）不要常常反悔，輕易推翻已經決定的事。
（3）在眾人爭執不休時，不要沒有主見。

（4）整體氛圍低落時，你要樂觀、陽光。
（5）做任何事情都要用心，因為有人在看著你。
（6）事情不順的時候，歇口氣，重新尋找突破口，就結束也要乾淨俐落。
四：大度
（1）不要刻意把有可能是夥伴的人變成對手。
（2）對別人的小過失、小錯誤不要斤斤計較。
（3）在金錢上要大方，學習三施（財施、法施、無畏施）
（4）不要有權力的傲慢和知識的偏見。
（5）任何成果和成就都應和別人分享。
（6）必須有人犧牲或奉獻的時候，自己走在前面。
五：誠信
（1）做不到的事情不要說，說了就努力做到。
（2）虛的口號或標語不要常掛嘴上。
（3）針對客戶提出的“不誠信"問題，拿出改善的方法。
（4）停止一切“不道德"的手段。
（5）耍弄小聰明，要不得！
（6）計算一下產品或服務的誠信代價，那就是品牌成本。
六：擔當

（1）檢討任何過失的時候，先從自身或自己人開始反省。
（2）事項結束後，先審查過錯，再列述功勞。
（3）認錯從上級開始，表功從下級啟動
（4）著手一個計畫，先將權責界定清楚，而且分配得當。
（5）對“怕事"的人或組織要挑明瞭說。
（6）因為勇於承擔責任所造成的損失，公司應該承擔

成大事的九種手段：
1、敢於決斷－－克服猶豫不定的習性
很多人之所以一事無成，最大的毛病就是缺乏敢於決斷的手段，總是左顧右盼、思前想後，從而錯失成功的最佳時機。成大事者在看到事情的成功可能性到來時，敢於做出重大決斷，因此取得先機。
2、挑戰弱點－－徹底改變自己的缺陷
人人都有弱點，不能成大事者總是固守自己的弱點，一生都不會發生重大轉變；能成大事者總是善於從自己的弱點上開刀，去把自己變成一個能力超強的人。一個連自己的缺陷都不能糾正的人，只能是失敗者！
3、突破困境－－從失敗中撮成功的資本
人生總要面臨各種困境的挑戰，甚至可以說困境就是“鬼門關”。一般人會在困境面前渾身發抖，而成大事者則能把困境變為成功的有力跳板。
4、抓住機遇－－善於選擇、善於創造
機遇就是人生最大的財富。有些人浪費機遇輕而易舉，所以一個個有巨大潛力的機遇都悄然溜跑，成大事都是絕對不允許溜走，並且能縱身撲向機遇。
5、發揮強項－－做自己最擅長的事情
一個能力極弱的人肯定難以打開人生局面，他必定是人生舞臺上重量級選手的犧牲品；成大事者關於在自己要做的事情上，充分施展才智，一步一步地拓寬成功之路。
6、調整心態－－切忌讓情緒傷害自己

心態消極的人，無論如何都挑不起生活和重擔，因為他們無法直面一個個人生挫折，成大事者則關於高速心態，即使在毫無希望時，也能看到一線成功的亮光。
7、立即行動－－只說不做，徒勞無益
一次行動勝過百遍心想。有些人是“語言的巨人，行動的矮子”，所以看不到更為實際現實的事情在他身上發生；成大事者是每天都靠行動來落實自己的人生計畫的。
8、善於交往－－巧妙利用人力資源
一個人不懂得交往，必然會推動人際關係的力量。成大事者的特點之一是：善於靠借力、借熱去營造成功的局勢，從而能把一件件難以辦成的事辦成，實現自己人生的規劃。
9、重新規劃－－站到更高的起點上

人生是一個過程，成功也是一個過程。你如果滿足于小成功，就會推動大成功。成大事者懂得從小到大的艱辛過程，所以在實現了一個個小成功之後，能繼續拆開下一個人生的“密封袋”。

可以講任何一種手段，都可以導致一種結果，但這個結果是不是最佳的結果，恐怕就很難說了。成大事者總是選擇最佳的手段，達到最完善的結果，這就是非一般人所能做到的。因此在成功之路上，你要想成大事，首先要解決的問題就是：你的手段對你推動成功的計畫是否立竿見影！

哈哈终于洗牙了~！

2010-11-17T16:56:00.002+08:00

从上个学期犹豫到现在
本来打算省钱
上个学期还打算要在大学pk洗牙算了
可是一拖再拖
拖到了现在还是没去到
呵呵~

结果在妈妈的介绍下
去了ParitBuntar Dr.Goh解决
到了他的店面
看到了‘历史悠久’的感觉
我犹豫了

本来就要打算转头走人了
可是想了想
我不去，就不懂又要拖到什么时候了
既来之，则安之
进了去，在柜台问问了一些资料
看见了蛮多人的
又再次犹豫应不应该等（因为一个小时后赶着要带弟弟去补习）

在等待我的turn的时候
当时柜台的aunty竟然很热情的和我聊了起来
从聊牙齿，聊到教育，聊到政治，聊到本地大专与新加坡大专程度
这么一聊就大概20分钟了~呵呵
过后才得知原来医生是马大牙科毕业的

其实这一次决定洗牙
是因为想起自己太久没有检查牙齿了
牙齿上有些牙斑与硬块
有些担心自己牙齿会坏掉（坏掉就不帅了，想笑的话也不太敢开口了？)

进了房间
医生竟然跟我大聊起来！（还比柜台aunty厉害聊）
一开始就和我上一堂如何照顾牙齿的了lecture
*所以我在这一顺便和大家分享一下*
一开始帮我检查时
医生很吃惊的说道：
哇！你的牙齿，没坏，没烂，没有senget，智慧牙相当正常
算得上是一等一的算得上牙齿~
可是你一定很久没有来service你的牙齿了

*一些医生的精彩对话*
1.医生说：你多久要剪头发一次？
我说：随缘，有机会，真的长得够力了我会去剪
医生说：头发能帮你遮雨，遮太阳吗？
我说：不能不能（没办法，牙齿的安危在他手上，配合他吧！）
医生说：我看你的头发，像女生的，也应该不会（@@??什么意思哦）

2.医生说：头发重要还是牙齿重要？
ei朋友，牙齿是你的好朋友啊，别等到你没了牙过后才来遗憾
（头发与牙齿沦他重复了很多次)

3.医生说：一年check一次牙齿罢了，不会多，这样又能确保它的健康（我觉得这一点是对的）

由于我真是很久没有检查牙齿了
所以牙齿形成了一些牙菌斑与牙石
为了美观与卫生
我也要求把它们都除掉
洗牙的过程如何？
呵呵
由于那些牙石都是由牙菌形成的
有些已经由黄变黑了
味道相当恶心的
同时他的仪器，在过程中帮我‘捐了’一些血
可是过程算没什么痛
而牙齿service过后
本人还算相当满意的
RM80，还过得去吧
总会好过在pk被折磨到半死，又洗得不太干净的

过程完成后，医生竟然对我说
my friend！
现在你可以安心去kiss你女朋友了！
不用担心有口臭问题了
哈哈！！
听了过后我真的 =。=||||
呵呵~
无论如何，我还是会再次会去的
毕竟牙齿是我们的资产
没了就是没了
假的，怎么厉害，感觉还是会不一样的
好好照顾你们的牙齿了^^

家

2010-11-14T02:23:00.002+08:00

今天回家路途障碍不停
巴士从2.15pm delay 到了330pm
从hentiankajang，去到了bukitjalil换了巴士
终于安定下来了，正式朝着家乡的方向回去
845pm..
虽然是迟了些，可是总算到达了

回到了家里
看见了好久不见的
父母与兄妹
吃着再平凡不过的晚餐
虽然简单，可是我已经满足了

路程一路向北
回到我家乡
一路上
自己想了很多
和兄妹聊了一些

想起了我现在的父母
心情沉重了不少
也为了自己，妹妹和弟弟做了一些人生规划
爸爸53岁
妈妈50岁了
我将会21岁
23岁毕业进入社会

突然想起来
我到底几岁才能成功
我几岁才能够有自己的
第一辆车子
第一间房子
自己的一个家庭

想起这么多年来
刻苦耐劳为着我们付出的母亲
心里真的好辛酸
妈妈为我们付出的实在是太多太多了
她该享有的是更多
我好想快点让母亲早些享福
我不想她再为了我们辛苦

可是时间没有太多了
等到我成功了，爸爸妈妈都几岁了
他们来得及看到我的那一天吗？

爸妈，
我会努力的。。

失去。收获

2010-11-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

FW：不懂谁写的，借分享~

小弟平生最讨厌的
有两种人
而这两种人同时都出现在我的视觉范围内
虚伪，势利眼，马后炮
这位朋友
我不得不欣赏他/她
因为他是我看过表面功夫得很好的人
平时就是会跟你嘻嘻呵呵，可是问题出现的时候
就会用一种“你看！之前都告诉过您要这样那样，你本来要这样那样做才对”
然而，我还是会洗耳恭听的，因为我需要改变与进步

另一种：现实
一位曾经严重伤害过我的一个人
这几个月来
我不停地分析在分析
不明白，为什么一个人可以这么狠心
可是，你无礼的态度真的offend到我很厉害一下
平时都不不找我的
对你主动打招呼，微笑，也竟然当我透明
当听说要选landasan ko-k clear unit
竟然sms：i choose for abadi as my 1st choice
@@什么意思哦小姐，火大！

之前还觉得，
可能是因为你思想还不够成熟
可是现在我能肯定
这是你的本性
我不怪你
因为我知道你在思维上突破不了
而我感谢
因为能够把你看得更加透彻
而自己不会再次因为你，而伤心

（以上论文，请勿对号入座，避免不必要的误会）

又是好一段时间没上来了~

2010-11-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

一个星期的放假
终于快来到尽头了
这一个星期内
真的没什么好好利用到时间
还有两颗major
东都还没有动过
呵呵
看来这几天真的颓废了不少

这个星期
在星期一的presentation后
火力都集中在abadi'11
也在这个星期内想了不少

其实很坦白说
对这个团体，缺乏了归宿感
因为一个人工作
而没有一个能够和自己分担问题的战友
感觉是寂寞，与辛苦的
问题障碍一样一样的来
我一样一样的解决
而希望的事
虽然现在我是暂时一个人作战
可是排除了考试过后
希望我团队里的战友们都会回来帮忙
真的
我很需要你们的自动自发
很需要你们的批评与意见
开会如果只是一味的赞同
那开会，真的是没有意思了

虽然很多时候我很不满意
我很生气
可是我都选择忍下气
与其像某同学什么事都要乱到让全世界都知道的
（对不起，这种高调的exposure不适合我）
想歌解决方案会来得贴切些
朋友们，
不是我不相合你们分享
可是有些事情有时还是需要自己来 =p
靠山，山会倒，靠马，马会跑
排除万难，提升能力 =D

就希望我面对到的问题都能迎刃而解吧~

方便自己参考~

2010-09-01T17:08:00.001+08:00

女人只有和成熟的男人在一起才会幸福.........

by Kanest Lee on Tuesday, August 17, 2010 at 11:46am

１.未成熟男人会叫你猪头、亲爱的、傻瓜之类的成熟的男人会叫你宝宝。而且是心疼的。

２.未成熟男人会很用力的和你接吻，不管你是不是喜欢，是不是允许。成熟的男人会在情到浓处时闭上眼睛轻轻的吻你，让你能感受他细致的爱。

３.未成熟男人在和你打电话或夜聊时，不会太在意你是否想不想睡觉，而由自己决定是不是挂线。成熟的男人会不停的关心你是否困，是否会耽误你其它安排，然后再决定下一步。甚至自己很累只要你不想睡就会陪你。

４.未成熟男人总是问你东问你西，今天做了什么什么，和谁谁怎样，问题多的数不清，却从不自己动脑子去想想很多显而易见的问题。成熟的男人很少会问你太多问题，除非是一件他们搞不清、抓不到任何蛛丝马迹的事情。否则很少有什么可以逃出他们的分析和思维能力。

５.未成熟男人总是对你讲谁谁谁的不好，谁家又有什么事了等等各种八卦。成熟的男人很少在你面前议论谁的不好，并教会你一些道理。

６.未成熟男人会让你给他做饭洗衣敲背，偶尔为你做几道味道一般的饭菜，但会指责你的毛病。成熟的男人会很安静的只要有时间就给你做很美味的饭菜，递给你水果，洗衣收拾家务，就算你做的饭难吃也会表面幸福的全部吃掉。

７.未成熟男人会在公共场合大声笑，不顾旁人的和你闹。成熟的男人会自己做自己的事，沉稳微笑着处理各种场合。很尊重照顾你。

８.未成熟男人总是在打架时保护你，或者让你走。成熟的男人在你在旁边时不会打架，而是镇定的用智斗。

９.未成熟男人会没事拉上一大帮朋友去酒吧夜店玩，然后很HIGH的玩，和美女眉来眼去。成熟的男人总是迫不得以的被人叫去，安静的抽烟喝酒和朋友聊天。

１０.未成熟男人总是有没玩没了的问题，想要更加了解你。成熟的男人只会用心了解你。

１１.未成熟男人喜欢喝酒，没事到哪吃饭都爱开瓶酒。成熟的男人讨厌喝酒，需要喝酒的时候才会喝酒。

１２.未成熟男人抽烟大多为了消磨时间或者习惯好玩。成熟的男人抽烟大多是为了思考和使自己镇定。

１３.未成熟男人遇到困难的时候会问你怎么办。成熟的男人遇到困难的时候不会告诉你，而是自己去承受。

１４.未成熟男人喜欢昂贵华而不实的东西，追求表面的东西。成熟的男人不喜欢张扬的东西，喜欢有质量和有品味的东西。

１５.未成熟男人喜欢奢侈的生活，有时会浪费。成熟的男人不管多有钱，都会对自己很节俭，却对别人和对心爱的你很大方。

１６.未成熟男人很少回家和父母在一起，也很少关心疼爱父母。经常会做不顾父母感受的事情。成熟的男人哪怕工作再忙都会没时间抽时间回家陪家人，给家人买最好的东西。父母长病，天天陪在床前。每件事都会站在父母的角度考虑。

１７.未成熟男人会和你抢电视机遥控器。成熟的男人会陪你看你喜欢的电视节目。

１８.未成熟男人会听自己喜欢的歌曲，还会滔滔不绝的强迫你一起喜欢。成熟的男人听自己喜欢的歌，但也会了解你喜欢的歌。偶尔投其所好，总之看见你微笑他就开心。

１９．未成熟男人开车时会和你闹，拉你的手还不时的看你。成熟的男人会很认真的开车，会给你讲很多好玩的笑话还有事情，不让你和他闹。因为他珍爱生命，尤其是你的生命。

２０．未成熟男人会抱着你时说你沉，你这个小猪，让你减肥。成熟的男人喜欢背着你转，然后说你怎么这么轻，让你不需要减肥，顺其自然就好。

２１.未成熟男人会考虑半天才买下你喜欢的东西。之后还会唠叨给你买过什么。成熟的男人是只要你喜欢，就会毫不犹豫的买下。或者暗暗买下你喜欢的，给你个惊喜。他爱你，所以会努力让你快乐。

２２.未成熟男人会在过节或生日时给你开PARTY庆祝。成熟的男人会带你到一个温馨的地方给你庆祝，只有你们两个人，属于你们的小世界。

２３.未成熟男人总是到处炫耀他的女人和恋情。不管你是不是介意。成熟的男人，你在身边时他才会骄傲的扬着头。不用说，他的朋友们也会明白你们的关系。你爱他，他爱你，有时爱情就是这么简单的事。

２４．未成熟男人总是喜欢你打扮的花枝招展，生怕走在街上别人不看你，朋友亲戚不夸女朋友时尚漂亮。成熟的男人不喜欢你化妆和打扮的张扬。他们更喜欢自然简单的你。就算不化妆丑也觉你是最漂亮的。

２５.未成熟男人的爱经不住考验，缺乏的是深厚和执着。成熟的男人的爱是博大精深的，爱的不动声色，却又坚定执着。如同父爱。他视你若珍宝。

２６．未成熟男人总是在浪费时间。成熟的男人总是觉的时间不够去拼搏，只想你能幸幸福福。

２７.未成熟男人总是做出很多不负责任的事，然后想方设法逃避责任。成熟的男人总是勇敢去承担责任，并不会做出任何伤害你的事。

２８．未成熟男人遇到问题矛盾，会问你怎么办。成熟的男人会冷静地想解决的办法。

２９.未成熟男人会让你哭让你生气。成熟男人会让你笑让你舒心让你幸福。

感谢每一个人 =)

2010-09-01T16:44:00.003+08:00

昨天和一位老朋友聊起天来
我们之间好像真的好久没那么聊过了
来到ukm的第3个sem了
虽然常常会在大学里遇到面
可是都是点点头，说声harlo就匆匆离去
昨天
可是我这么久以来
第一次把心里的话说得比较彻底的
真的非常谢谢你 =)

偶尔脑袋会很混乱
常常把梦境和事实都搞乱了
然而谢谢我的室友
可能你没发现
可是你的一次提醒
(呵呵感觉好像inseption的剧情一样)
让我清清楚楚地明白我的立场
解答了一直在我脑海里面徘徊的问题

由于做lab时常会需要我们活在等待中
基于过于空闲
为了打发时间之际
我动手起来了

小小草蜢

谢谢cikguHalim~
在我2年级时教会了我这小小艺术
也谢谢我几个38的coursemate
让我有机会回想起如何折^^
也相信我会折得更好的~

谢谢你分享的一篇文章
不管你是以什么心态
这篇文章让我觉悟了不少

时间
是我现在最需要的东西
知道自己还没有准备好
知道你现在需要的是什么
知道自己还是不够成熟
知道我们都需要时间成长

如果事情还是会有转机
我只想变得更好

再甜蜜的事情也只是回忆，再痛苦的事情也乃是事实

虽然很多事情都变了，至少回忆依然不变 =）

2010-08-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

终于舍得去买票回家了
呵呵
一拖再拖，就拖了两个礼拜
都不懂自己到底在婆婆妈妈些什么
那很好~到了kajang火车站，票都被卖完了
呵呵也活该的啦
结果没办法，只好换个策略
做巴士回家
一些就是我今天的漫长行程表了：

UKM--->KTM UKM station--->Kajang Station--->KTM UKM Station--->Hentian Kajang--->UKM

结果呢~
呵呵今天让我等了好多~
开始是在巴士站等6k-一等就是20分钟
到了ktm-一等又是40分钟
从kajang回来，要去hentiankajang-又是等了30分钟
简单来说，今天大半天我都把时间花在等待

然而在我漫长等待的期间
填满我脑袋的东西
竟然满满的都是你
都是我们的回忆

当是我很无助，
想找个人告诉我的心情
第一想到想寄托的人
不是我的父母
而是你。。

这时我意识到
你依然占了我心里的大部分
在这段漫长的等待时间
突然让我领悟到了一些东西

还是很喜欢你
这是事实
不了解你的想法，也不懂如何去了解你
这也是事实
很想回到过去
改变一些
可能会为今天的结果有些调整的决定
可是我知道，事实依然是事实

前几天都很不开心
原因是心态问题
有时转牛角尖多了
人也悲观起来
然而
今天，当回想我们的回忆时
我不禁微笑了起来
想起我们一起的甜蜜的时光
顿时让我领悟了一件事

朋友都尝告诉我：
Jafon，放下他，继续往前走，你会遇到更好的
可是
为何不如
把你永远留在心里，微笑，再继续往前走
虽然很多事情都变了，至少回忆依然不变 =）

请让我再次大声对你说声：我好喜欢你
我也会好好珍惜我们曾经的回忆

呵呵~今天这段狼狈的买票经历，让我找回让自己微笑的原因^^

我会珍惜所有，谢谢你给我一切，一切~

过去朋友房间steamboat咯~呵呵^^

！！

2010-08-29T12:54:00.001+08:00

心情再次被你们几度影响。。

我有预感
事情会是迟早的事情
无言
无言
还是无言

看来好事近了~恭喜恭喜

Amin Com Night 2010

2010-08-28T02:52:00.002+08:00

其实在之前本身是非常期待这一届的comnight
可能是本身没有办法出席到第一次
而由于遗憾，所以对这一次期待特别强烈

可是某些事情发生后
改变了我的想法
竟然变得没有感觉，没有任何期待
而我也很清楚知道到底是为什么
然而我清楚知道这一次的comnight会为大家带来什么样的impact
特别是1st year的学弟学妹们
我不想他们少了我缺少的回忆
因此我也决定把自己的本分做好
偶尔需要招来白眼，我还是忍下来

终于大家的大日子到了
能当到主持人其实对我来说是件好事
这么一来
我可以因为工作岗位
而不会面对到会让我不太愉快的事情
只需要从头到尾拿着我的麦克风
做我该做的事轻而已

刚开始时从不在状况
（在此真的非常感谢我的partner：Kris）
这也当然是个人问题
被个人因素影响而无法专业的进行我的岗位
有人说：
Jafon刚才你看起来很high噢～
我只能苦笑。。
今天证明了自己还是很在乎的
可是自己得选择得好像不在乎一样
我告诉自己我不会介意
然而我还是介意了
使得自己越来越ｄｏｗｎ

还是很明白
这一些也已经不是我的管理方位内了
不了解别人到底是怎么样想我的
也不了解你是怎么想
可是我相信无论如何，你肯定是开心的
所以我不能再介意
毕竟本身真的不想有这个样子的结果
凡伤害过必留下痕迹
而我需要的，会是更多的时间而已

它结果还是和我预料的发生一样 =）笑一笑~ KeEp MoViNg FoWaRd~

选男友跟选鞋子一样，好看的鞋子不一定本质好 xD

2010-08-01T13:26:00.002+08:00

'选男友跟选鞋子一样，好看的鞋子不一定本质好 xD
就算好看又好穿，也不一定适合自己'

真是让人哭笑不得的一句话
6.11.09-我们在一起了
21.5.10 -我们在一起时的生日
22.7.2010(thrusday night) 1256am---我们正式分手了

谢谢近来时常陪着我的朋友
谢谢《因为有爱的〉大家
因为你们让我近来的生活过得精彩有意义
谢谢槟华，谢谢日新校友会
因为活动让我减少生活在生活中

答应了自己要接受
我想这点我做到了
可是
要放下
可真的不是说放就放
恋爱不是像试穿鞋子一样
好看，好穿
可是到了一段时间
不想穿时就可以随意放在一旁

恋爱是要用心去培养的一段感情
对我而言
当自己把种子种在心里了
爱心，回忆，付出成了种子茁壮成长的肥料
突然要把小树苗从心里拔除
那。。是何等的痛，何等的伤害

在美好的回忆下
现在留下的是失望和遗憾
遗憾
是因为自己太顺从了
没去很坚定地挽留
而失望的是
在你口中说出了这么一句话

心里，还是没放弃过
可是我懂，我还是需要往前走。。

我会过得好好的

2010-07-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

现在心里已经没要求了
本身也只想默默地支持
默默地给你关心
可是原来
这样让你觉得到压力
傻瓜
不需要感到对不起我
因为这是我单方面的个人付出
是心甘情愿
所以不需要感到难过

昨天在删除手机讯息时
在删除后只留下的
是你的讯息
从本来好好的
到冷战
到了现在这个样子
不舍得删除
是因为不舍得
是因为你的每一封讯息都显得那么的珍贵
不管是甜是苦

不想我对你太好
是因为觉得对不起我
你说你会把我放在你心里
不懂是安慰还是其他的
可是我选择相信
知道你也很担心我
可是已经不是恋人那种担心le

偶然之下知道
你一直强调要我做会自己，享受自己
是因为你认为
我们在一起后，双方都改变了
你说你不喜欢你的改变
不喜欢现在的‘你’
你也说
jafon和你在一起后便了很多
然而，在我的观点看来
这种改变对我来说是种成长

繁忙的课业
也成为了你不想恋爱的原因之一
之前的我相当挣扎
因为我认为这样的问题是可以解决的
可是
渐渐的
我开始累了
我只想默默的付出
默默地关心你
可以吗？
我真的不想，也不能要求那么多了

尽量消失在你面前
尽量让自己更忙碌
尽量让自己大专生活更精彩
尽量认识更多人
尽量提升自己
如果认为时间能让我慢慢放下
我只能说时间只会让我越来越爱你

很想被你关心
可是
请放心
我会好好过
请放心
我会好好珍惜自己
而请放心
我会比从前快乐

无奈的心疼

2010-07-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

只能从面子书得到你近来的消息
只能从朋友听到你近来的情况
很想你
可是无法对你说
需要你
更不能让你知道

偶尔遇到
只能勉强自己对你微笑
心里好痛
可是我只能忍着
无奈地从远方看着你

不能常讯息你
又不能不讯息你
深怕你会忘了我
真的第一次感觉那么无奈

很想很想你
好想告诉你自己是多么的需要你。。
可是我知道不能。。 =( =( =(

虽然平时很珍惜我们之间的相处时间，虽然你没有提起那两个字，还是很渴望自己能够和你再次在一起。。我期待

等待

2010-07-15T17:04:00.002+08:00

这几天情绪起伏性超大
我还是和以前一样慢半拍
每次都错过该挽留的时刻
而往往的
都是在一段时间后感觉到痛
其实这几天来我都已经做好了最坏的打算
可是。。
当时事情来了，情绪真是当不下来的
很伤心
很绝望
可是还得坚强
因为背负着责任

昨天民华常年会议了
其实之前都很期待看待学弟妹们接棒
本身去年又无法参与ｃｏｍ　ｎｉｔｅ
毕竟有些遗憾
可是。。
突然少了你，那股冲刺真的减少了一大半
啊ｐｈｏｎｇ问我
为什么闷闷不乐的
是不是学弟妹不合作
我只能苦笑不是
我最爱的人就在眼前
在大家的面前又必须表现得好像没什么事一样
对我来说是一种折磨
好想对他说好多话
可是知道你现在需要的是时间和空间
所以我总得忍着
人家提起我们
也只能苦笑
不懂现在的你是怎么想的

之前的我真的好不服气
不服气因为单方面的问题而提议结束
不服气因为没让我有机会做调整
可是
事情还是发生了

你说
恨你会让我好过点
可是恨你我真的做不到
本身还是一样很喜欢着你
你说你暂时不想恋爱　
你觉得很辛苦
虽然到了现在还是不了解其中发生了什么事
也已经不是追究的时候了

所以我选择了沉默和微笑
这样一来对你对我也比较好
可是
我还是会等下去
等到时间对了
再次追求你
很担心自己到时没机会了
害怕你已有喜欢的对象了
可是无论如何
我只有得等了。。

爱你..

心开始淡了

2010-07-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

=）
终于知道为什么会得到这样的对待了
原来你的敷衍
是一种逃避
逃避着我

无意间知道了
原来你之前说的单身好
是真的
原来只是我太obssesed
还以为你只是突感而发
自己还是对这段感情依然还是那么的有信心
难道结局还是会和之前一样
历史重演？

短短的一个月半
竟然就足够把在恋爱的人
变得想单身
真的是那么容易吗？

写不下去~不写了^^

如何让你们的另一半在乎你。。

2010-07-06T03:07:00.002+08:00

又是一个人守夜
距离现在我剩下50分钟的工作时间
小睡一会儿~530又是开工时刻了~

既然嫌这还是嫌着
就回来这里抒发自己的疑问
其实我很好奇在座的大家
尤其是身为女友的~

老实说你们会比较喜欢找别人聊天吗？（先别在乎性别)
还是你们会有种想法就是
男友会很闷
讲来讲去都是那几样东西
很无聊
找别人聊就不会有这样的问题了~
eheh？
这是我个人问题而造成的吗？
如果长期对一个好
好到她麻木，没感觉了
是不是会让他感觉到没有危机感
而导致忽略我的想法和心情？
让他忘了什么叫珍惜
因为很多时候
需要分享我心得时
他终不是那个会很想知道的一个
太多次的敷衍只会让我一次比一次的失望
如果有人肯和我分享你们的心得的~我随时欢迎~^^

小小领悟^^

2010-07-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

一直认为
通过讯息，电话才能让我知道你的现况
想了解你今天经历了什么
感触到些什么
无法见到对方
连电话也不能打
对我而言这是我唯一能够了解你的方法
可是到了今天
我才真正了解到
原来
对你而言
想了解你现在的境况
对你来说是一种约束
对你生活是一种干涉
"你在干什么？" "吃饱了吗？"
都是让你听到厌倦的问题吧

以前总觉得以前的那个‘她’太粘人
现在的你切是完全相反
有点适应不来啊~ 呵呵

其实我已经开始觉得累了
累是因为得不到我们该有的沟通
对我这种感情敏感的人
单方面的猜测是一种折磨

呵呵那为什么我之前没发现过你这个问题呢？
很简单
因为之前
我们所谓的恋爱热度还在~
我们常都会相遇
问题当然不会出现
然而
短短的1个月办就足够冷化之间的热度
每一次线了讯息后
以充满期待的心情等待你的恢复
换来的只是
“哦，好的”
这是多么的失望~

人人都告诉我：你们需要多沟通
= =swt。。这个我当然懂啊
可是我觉得是问题的问题，他不觉得是一回事
一个月半就这样了
那以后呢，未来呢？
如果没想出之间适合对方的解决方法
问题解决了吗？
答案当然是不能

其实我认为我渐渐从感性
开始转变为理性的人了
单方面的伤心猜测
这实在是太笨的举动了
与其等待别人的关心关怀
不如自己珍惜自己
毕竟别人也了解不到自己在经历些什么

所以
决定了在这个迎新周里
我不会再让自己受到这方面的情绪影响
我还是得为自己身体着想吧~
在这里
非常感谢每位支持的朋友
不敢是行动上，还是精神上
谢谢你们 =)

心里最亲的人，竟然是暗伤我的最厉害的人

2010-07-03T00:15:00.004+08:00

X的！
这一次我真的生气你了!!
我真的是超级火大!!

我不是玩具
请不要玩弄我感情!!
我有什么不好你就一五一十告诉我
不要等到到最后时
只丢下"我们不适合对方"这种不负责任的说法!!!!!!

我真的不懂你在想什么了
如果你还是在乎这段感情的话
而还想维持下去的话
请沟通好吗？
想沟通
可是当方面的沟通算什么沟通?!
你给我的无限个借口
我一直告诉自己要忍耐，要有耐心
可是你那番话真的让我不止是愤怒
而是心疼
你到底懂不懂伤心，失望，愤怒一起来的那种感觉????

我不否认我很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢你
如果要我放弃这段感情
对我而言是几乎不可能
可是
我固然有我需要维护的尊严
如果我到了我的极限
。。。

你说的话都是让我感到极度失望的话
几乎不认识你是谁了。。
“请不要在乎这种小事情，我只希望你潇洒点”
老实说，你老是说我们的恋爱不成熟
请自我检讨，你有多好多成熟？
我还是很在乎“我们”的未来
我还是会做出需要做出的让步

虽然把话都吐在这里
而知道你都不会看我的部落格
虽然这种举动好像很笨
而且又解决不到问题
我会把你说的话都当成你一时生气所说的气话。。
希望开学时事情会好转

告诉你，你对我有多重要

2010-06-30T01:55:00.001+08:00

如果、晚上我们聊着聊着你发信息过来我没有理你、
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、因为我已经支撑到我睡着的最后一

刻
　　
　　我想多点时间来陪着你、但我实在坚持不住睡着了、一定不要怪我没回复你信息
　　
　　
　　
　　≈：如果、我回复你的信息是：“哦”
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、
　　
　　我不喜欢说哦字，因为这个字代表冷漠、
　　
　　如果我对你说了这个字、代表你让我感到伤心难过了、
　　
　　我会尽量调整好自己的情绪、不和你生气、
　　
　　
　　
　　≈：如果、你最后选择的不是我
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、因为我已经做了最大的努力
　　
　　不能被你爱上，一定是我哪里做得不够好
　　
　　我会笑着祝福你、
　　
　　
　　
　　≈：如果、哪一天我让你觉得有负担了
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、因为那一定是我爱你爱得太深了
　　
　　我还是个孩子、我也会想要自私的拥有你、
　　
　　若是哪天我给了你压力、请你一定要告诉我、我会改
　　
　　我会用我自己的方式去让你感到幸福、
　　
　　
　　
　　≈：如果、我哪一天离开你了
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、因为那是你的冷漠让我望而却步了
　　
　　离开你、不是不爱、而是不敢再爱了
　　
　　我知道你一定会理解我的无奈、你会知道离开你我有多难过、
　　
　　
　　
　　≈：如果、我吃醋对你发脾气、
　　
　　请你一定不要怪我、更不要狠心离开我、因为那是我在乎你、
　　
　　在我发脾气的时候一定不要放开我的手、
　　
　　因为我怕我会一时冲动说出连自己都不知道自己在说什么的话、
　　
　　所以、一定要先劝我冷静、
　　
　　
　　
　　
　　
　　在我向上帝祷告的时候、我对他说、在我的心中、你的位置谁也无法取代、
　　
　　
　　
　　遇见你、我慢慢改掉自己的小脾气、学会忍耐、
　　
　　
　　
　　并不会觉得委屈、而是有一种能够为你付出的小幸福、
　　
　　
　　
　　你说我还孩子气、不够成熟、
　　
　　
　　
　　可我有我自己爱你的方式、我会当你的开心果、在你难过郁闷的时候逗你开心、
　　
　　
　　
　　现在的你给不了我任何承诺、我不会怪你、因为我知道你是不想伤害我、
　　
　　
　　
　　我只希望你会让我一直陪着你、不对我感到厌倦、我便心满意足、
　　
　　
　　
　　我会用我全部的力气去读懂你、习惯你的一切、跟着你的节奏来、
　　
　　
　　
　　谢谢你、让我可以陪在你身边、
　　
　　
　　
　　对你、视为我爱不释手的唯一、
　　
　　
　　
　　我只希望、有那么一天、你会对我说、你也视我为你的唯一、
　　
　　
　　
　　亲爱的、我会好好爱、
　　

哦..

2010-06-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

有时候一些话，
短短一句，已经够让人很伤心
这几天都忙着活动
到了besut.Terengannu camp过了4天3夜
这4天里真的让我认识了不少了
也让我重新记得回不少关系已经疏远的朋友
这几天来多得有你们~让我度过了精彩的几天~

人有喜有乐
在出发到丁加奴的当天
自己得到了让我非常惊讶的消息
第二期癌症。。
实在让我太无言了
我知道我老友你一向来都坚强得很
加油~！因为我们知道你会好的很快！

是我的问题吗？
让你有了这样的想法
虽然你说你突感而发而已
可是
你是否想过看到的我到底是怎么想？
虽然说我耐心不错
可是我毕竟只是个普通人
我会有感情的变化
会生气，伤心，妒嫉
而不是常常像表面那样
我也不喜欢被敷衍的感觉
我可以一个人，不需要任何人的关心，毕竟这5-6年来都是被这样训练出来的
可是至少需要到你，可以吗？

其实在面子书看到那些话
我还是可以忍受的
可是我想我是受不了人家的落井下石
很多次想把问题解决
可是常常都被带过罢了
我不喜欢顺其自然！！懂吗？
因为世界上很多东西都是靠努力和争取的

我也不否认我很多进步和突破
你往往都是我的那个启发人
所以我想说，要我不要因为你而改变
对不起我做不到

无论怎样
过了今天，让会尽量争取一切让我自我提升的机会
因为大学会是我到社会之前唯一的本钱了！

(#$&(%&#%

2010-04-04T01:30:00.002+08:00

现在我很生气很生气很生气很生气很生气很生气很生气！
。。。。。。。
很讨厌说话时人家当我放屁
很讨厌我在等你的回应时，总是把我放到最后
很不喜欢当你把我的劝告和关心，就只是用一个‘o’字来敷衍我
很多时候都会被你气得说不出话
很多次很想告诉你我怎么想
可是话总是流回嘴里
我想你懂我生气也是短暂罢了。。
因为自己的想象能力太强的关系
不懂了。。
睡了。。
睡饱就什么火气都没有了
晚安

我回来了。。

2009-12-30T01:04:00.002+08:00

被我遗弃多时的部落格。。
对不起啊。。
这么久没回来探望你
主人最近比较忙，不好意思啊~

今天的我。。
怎么说，好像有点怪怪的。。
可是到底怪在那里
我真的讲不出来

发现到今天的你
都默默不出声
虽然你都说自己累了
没事情
可是我心里很明白
而自己有些话
一直哽咽在喉咙
想说
可是明白说出来后事情的严重性
所以
自己选择吧事情往内吞

我想
问题因该出在我这里吧。。
总觉得自己还不够尽力。。
总认为我因该做得更好一点。。
我有在努力。。
希望能为你做多点东西
可是
我的努力够吗？
还是我不够体贴，事情想得不够全面化

有人说过
爱情=？
她回答了：信任
不想自己成为别人的压力。。
我。。 =X

心情不好时我总喜欢让自己忙些。。忙搞活动。。忙开会。。因为这样，让我感觉到自己活得比较有意义。。

补不回的错。。

2009-11-07T22:30:00.004+08:00

说话。。
就像被泼出去的水。。
讲了就收不回来。。
就像在板上钉上了铁钉。。
在除钉后留下来的钉洞。。
永远补不回心中的缺口。。

其实。。
今天我真的是非常的开心。。
感觉上我真的。。真的。。真的好就没这么开心了。。
这是我人生中。。
第一次发现到。。
有人能够让我感觉到，人。。是能过得那么美好的。。
第一次心跳
会因为一个她跳得如此的快。。
第一次感觉到
拥有一个人会是那么的幸福。。。
第一次希望。。
时间能够停留在那个时刻。。

真的非常得谢谢你。。
明明很累了。。
可是还是愿意抽出时间陪我。。
非常谢谢你。。
明明就。。
还是~你愿意抽出时间来。。
非常谢谢你。。
因为你。。
让我得到的真的是很多很多。。

妈妈说。。
一失足成千古恨
就像城堡在快建好了就因为一个错误倒了下来
有时人会在潜意识中
讲话没经过大脑就乱乱说出来。。
我就是那种笨蛋>< 我也懂。。现在补偿和解释是起不了作用的。。与其耿耿于怀。。倒不如好好迎接更多在等待着我们的美好~

@@突然患上短暂失忆症~不开心的事情被我忘光光了~今天过得太开心了~^^

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2009-10-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

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。。。。。。。

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想去散步。。

雨天。。

2009-10-30T21:37:00.003+08:00

刚刚淋雨回来。。
突然感触良多。。
才真的发现到
自己许多的回忆都是在雨天里。。

还记得小时候。。
自己超爱吃巧克力。。
就算天明明很暗。。
明明就快下雨了。。
当时的我才那么7岁
为了巧克力
自己还是会踏着比自己还要高的脚踏车
冒雨去买。。
结果一次回来途中路滑。。摔脚踏车了。。
巧克力也飞身飞进水沟了。。

嘻嘻也记得当自己大些时。。
每次乘爸爸妈妈工作时
都会和一群的猪朋狗友
一起溜到附近的网咖打game
而每次都玩到妈妈快放工时。。
一个个都飙着脚踏车飞车回家。。
那时在雨中飚车的感觉。。
还真爽快的。。
并冰凉凉^^
每次湿答答地回家~都会给妈好好洗脑~
对不起啊妈。。当时常常瞒着你。。

我也还记得中学时期。。
每次下雨上巴士的感觉。。
哇。。
那时真的是爽暴了~
全身湿湿的
上了巴士冷气超冷。。
想象一下这样的感觉维持1小时。。
感觉还蛮刺激的><

说着说着~
说到中五时。。
当时住宿舍的关系。。
吃饭上学当然就是只有11号巴士咯。。
哈哈当时淋雨淋到臭了咯
上学淋雨~
吃饭淋雨～
打ｇａｍｅ也淋雨～

可是我想我在雨里。。
最伤心的一次就只有那么一次了。。
还记得。。
当时。。
雨和泪。。
自己也分不清楚了。。
提出分手的虽然是自己。。
可是心里非常明白事情的真相。。

哈哈。。
一切都已成为过去了。。
不管是酸的。。苦的。。甜的。。美好的。。
这一切也已成为过去。。
非常的喜欢雨天。。
以前喜欢。。　现在喜欢。。　以后还是一样会喜欢。。

心情从很不好变得很好现在。。谢谢你^^

haha~ 某某..果然她和你很像。。

2009-10-26T19:05:00.004+08:00

有时候~
先感觉到甜原来并不是一件好事
当你以很迅速很顺利的进度爬到顶点
可是在没有防备下突然要你从最高点跌下来
那种感觉。。
可不是一种滋味。。

她的出现。。
到和她相处的时间。。
感觉真是有点像了
我一样会口吃。。
一样会讲错话。。
可是。。难道结果也会是一样吗。。^^

豆芽曾经说我是个自我保护的意识过强的人
这点我很承认啦。。
我绝对是不会让别人伤害。。
或我身边朋友与我在乎的人受伤害的。。
也谢谢大家能一起在PTSL读了一个下午
不然我看我也是facebook一整天了咯~

好啦好啦
以上也是我saja-saja打罢了~
明天考试咯。。
如果我的coursemates们大家都有留意我部落格的话
祝大家明天顺顺利利！！！马到功成！！
加油大家！！^^

感想。。

2009-10-26T03:00:00.002+08:00

好久好久。。
没那么辛苦了
哈哈回想起来最后一次这么辛苦
因该是2年前了吧。。

呕吐依然不是那么的可爱。。
而有要我凌晨每个小时逼不得以起来坐着不可爱的事情
过程更是不愉快咯。。
喝什么
吐什么
不吃东西
它又乱乱给我吐东西 ><

你拿走了我晚餐。。我午餐。。
我不介意。。
为什么连我体重也拿走了呜呜。。
病好后
很明显自己瘦了好多
剪短了头发后（而且有点难看那种）
更显得我像非洲灾民 T.T
算了拉。。
失去的都希望能得回来咯。。

剩下的。。
也不懂该说些什么。。
一样问题又出现了
是自信的问题？还是什么呢~

超白目 ><''

2009-10-21T03:28:00.002+08:00

我想最近有人快被我气到暴血管了
对不起啊。。
一而再，再而三的气到你说不出话
其实。。
我是没那么笨的。。
可是
就。。
唉。。。
我不懂啦！！
笨透了！！！！！

你的一举一动
你得一言一语
其实我都非常的懂。。
我
切装到好像什么都不懂，
变得很粗线条
笨到自己会想回去都很想攀自己的脸几下那种！

其实我想说的是。。
我装得好像很白木，
是因为我不懂得如何表达
我想关心
可是又不敢表达出我的关心
我不懂得如何面对。。
而我选择了逃避。。

如果还有多一次的机会。。
我不会说。。
我对每个人都那么一视同仁的不
如果还有多一次的机会。。
我会说。。
我们一起回吧。。
如果还有多一次机会。。
我会告诉你。。
我会多出现在你面前
多逗你笑。。而不是你们。。
每当遇到这样的事情。。
我变白痴了 @@
可是一切都已经是如果的如果了。。

被骂醒了。。是时候做些改变了。。

好一个发现。。

2009-10-20T19:28:00.003+08:00

其实这个问题。。我早就意识到它的存在很久了。。
很多人会认为我是个很懂得交流与与人沟通的人来的
可是事实上。。
我很清楚
自己在文笔上表达得还要清楚。。
曾经为自己的这个缺点努力改变过
可是
自己也发现了
刻意改变。。不是真正的改变
我依然是我。。
大家所看到的我也不就是一个假假的我～

真心能够聊天的朋友
试问我们人生中会有几个。。
能够找到能够彼此了解，又能陪我们过一生的
哪会有几个呢～
不需要可以找话题
不需要太多的掩饰
剩下来的只有一颗真心。。
不过老实说。。
很幸运的我找到一两个了～^^

我曾经为了不同的她
不停的提升自己。。
改变自己的缺点。。
增加自己的优点。。
真的非常感谢曾经在我这２０年生涯走过的你们
然而
还是有一点我还是没做到突破的
那就是自信。。

其实本人的判断能力可算是不错的。。
常常都能够做到正确的判断
偏偏，来到有关系到自己的事情时就显得不知所措
其实也不是当局者迷
只是自己选择了逃避 ><

唉。。　
顺其自然好呢。。　
还是主动争取呢。。
＝ｘ

终于。。它还是结束了。。

2009-10-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

忙了整整一个礼拜。。
终于。。
PT 还是结束了。。
在这个礼拜里
我看到的东西很多
我学到的东是很多
当然得到东西更多

本来从完全不会跳舞的自己
到今天略懂一二。。
这个成就
绝对少不了称赞无时无刻细心教导我们的night..
要他每天从KTHO老远来为我们操舞步，蹁舞步
本人感激万分
也同时谢谢kent和炎峰
谢谢你们的包容，谢谢你们的配合。。
大家都做得很棒！

在这个礼拜里。。
我看见大家都非常努力的为节目付出。。
虽然我也知道大家都不是闲着没事干的人（那也难怪的，amin 多的是人才^^)
大家还是肯付出时间来搞这个活动
而愿意为我们节目演出的大家
谢谢你们。。
看到你们每天练到真的是三更半夜
在看到大家憔悴的脸。。
说真的。。
看到一群小女生，每天都那么劳累
心里有点心酸

可是！！
养军千日，用在一时！！
大家的努力与付出，也在今天得到了大家的承认与肯定，喝彩与掌声！！
就只以大家的一颗真心就足于给大家100分了~
比起一些不但没付出。。而常在那儿讲风凉话的朋友（算了。。也罢了。。）
好友还有！！
非常谢谢肯捧场的大家
没有了大家的到来
我们的节目绝对不会那么的成功
大家的欢呼声与掌声
绝对是让我为自己成就而骄傲的!
我爱大家~！

当节目接近尾声时。。
我。。
竟然没感觉到想象中的满足。。
不懂为什么。。
有可能是自己负责的食物方面真的让大家失望了。。
有些不服年自己做得不好
也有可能是因为看到一些朋友不开心的脸孔。。
他们不开心。。我也不懂为何自己会搞得一样不开心。。
我喜欢大家一起努力的感觉
虽然过程是苦的。。
可是我心感觉是甘甜的
我真的希望能够成为大家的朋友。。
我。。
极度讨厌战争。。
可是有时候，批评会让自己题升的机会。。

无论如何。。
谢谢大家让我在国大留下一个很好的回忆
谢谢了！！

outgoing wif my siblings =)

2009-09-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

well..
went to jusco cuz wana do sum survey on laptops~
n it turned up..
i change my mind of buying a dell laptop..
n still stick bek to TOSHIBA XD

just 2 days..
during this 2 days.. i saw 失落 in faces of my 2 friend..
1st 1..
is during my outing wif a group of secondary friends for steamboat..
of cuz..
during this kind of gathering..
the usual topic we talk about is about universities life..
along the bz chit-chating..
i can see her..
she's difrent from b4..
not longer as active,as talkative as b4..
she find tings hard to mix in..
she's one of the unfortunate one's..
whose drop off the local U's list..
n now still waiting for the next intake for her studies..
sum said.. '你变不鸡渣乐，便有气质了'
she just smiled..
however deep in her heart..
i noe how she feels..

talk to my 2nd friend at DigitalBay just now..
talk bout his work there..
his life..
n his dreams..
all of a sudden i felt myselft so lucky..
and felt 伤感 as well..
he wanted to continue his studies..
but due to financial problem..
he is not able to do so..
a teen who is still so young..
*he's 1 year younger then i do..*
losing a chance for education..

SO GUYS~ DO B GRATEFUL AS WE STILL HAVE THE CHANCE FOR EDUCATION
try not to just waste ur chance to paint ur life colorful..
as uni life should b extremely wonderfull n excitment..
all the best guys~ and enjoy ^^

another ramdom post of mine =)

2009-09-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

its rather boring actualli..
although its good to be home..
but i realisie dat..
i hardly have time to talk to my parents..
both of them r bz working..
wat to do.. earning a living ma..

found dat my mum is quite pressure wif her job..
my sis told me mum mumbled a lot.. but to her ownself..
so im quite worried for her..
furthermore i heard a mother of my friend seems like 'lost' herself..
i have a wonderful and cute mum
haha its quite fun talking to her..
although she nagged a lot..

bout my sis..
wat i can say is..
she the cutest sister dat i ever have..
although she is kinda bodo bodo..
still at lease she does care for the family as i do XD

n bout my bro..
wat i can say is..
WOW!!
form3.. n now he is already 181cm!!
another 2more cms to go n he's overtaking me ><

seems like im kinda used to the bz life bek in UKM..
i do reali reali enjoy the bz kind of life..
cuz i don like wasting my time..
just like wat im doing rite now..
in fact..
im missing every1 bek there..
my lovely coursemates..
my roomate..
college frens..
families in PT..
my MC teammates..
the bz schedule..
haha..
once its friday.. i will be back~~

b4 dat.. i will make sure i eat everyting dat i wan b4 i go bek ^^

为了留名而作，还是为了做而名？

2009-09-20T20:00:00.002+08:00

日久知马力，日久知人心
i like dis peribahasa as it is showing tings dats occuring around me..

actualli i felt grateful cuz im able to hold a few post
no matter in college..
or in the pusat activity..
as i reali learnt a lot thru the process..
i can feel myself grew a lot XD

hmm..
great power comes great responsibility..
when u r higher in the hieraki..
the even more challanges dat u gonna face..
a lot of ppl out there r trying to appear 清高
although in face they r not..
they r just waiting others to fall
n taking dis opportunity to 'fire' on them..

a leader without followers are not leaders..
dats wat i learn from a lecturer..
u might b a gud worker..
but u might not b a gud leader..

....
feeling like deleting everyting tat i type above..
cuz i felt myself like craping..
haha..
sori if it looks hard to b understood

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MY FRENS~

感想

2009-09-09T14:59:00.001+08:00

fianlly..
i have the time to blog at last ><
haha due to request from fren..
here i come..
*updating my blog*

it've been months im in UKM..
wat i can say is
i reali gained a lot here..
frens..
experiences..
chances..
compliments..
difrent kind of ppl i met wif.. diffrent situations im handling wif..
n diffrent kind of feelings im experiencing wif~

although UKM(university kuat meeting) is the Unversitiy wif the least holidays~
still i enjoy dis kind of bz lifestyle~
activities and less studies(refering to my course onli ya~)
aparently i tink im having the kind of lifestyle like wat i wished once b4 =)

ok n here..
i've sth to dedicate to a fren of mine
这只是我的感想：
有时候隐瞒不代表是欺骗
有时候善意的谎言只是想让大家好过些
你付出100%，不代表你也同时会得回完全的100%
因为本来，世界就不太公平的对嘛
还有我认为。。
不管友谊还是爱情都得来不易，我知道身为局外人的我没权力说些什么
但做朋友的我们不能只是接受他们的优点
同时我们也得包涵他们的缺点
有了包涵以及谅解，一段感情才会走得更远
多站在别人的立场想想，明白下为何别人会这么做
there might b another story behind an incident很多事情不是表面看到那样
加上多反省。。
可能结局会不一样的

以我的了解多数当你看到我的post（如果你有看的话）
你是不太能接受的
可能我听起来像在废话什么的
你是个重义气的朋友
有可能有时一时气过头会想歪了方向
变成极端分子
我不懂如何表达我想表达的话
但我希望在你冷静后能再仔细想想
就这么多而已

aanyway~
having my chemis n ghani exam 2mrw n dis coming saturday
plus wif presentation n preparation for MC ><
*any1 out there willing to come support me.. do come to UluLangatKajang,PersatuanHokkien for our 国民大学第三十届中秋文娱晚会之园游会！*

stil belum get my clothes T.T
all rite~ bek to my studies~~~~ wahaha

a nice sunday =]

2009-08-23T20:34:00.002+08:00

今天有点blur blur的 XD
因该是早醒不够睡的关系吧哈哈
很开心
因为好久没在起来呼吸到新鲜的空气了
很开心
因为又回到了步操的场地了，还蛮怀念的^^
很开心
因为刚才午餐有着落。。不用陪彝族同胞一起puasa 哈哈
当然唯一不好的事刚才午觉睡迟了，搞到我现在晕晕地
把房间打理好后还蛮有满足感的
感觉起来干干净净，清清洁洁

最近还蛮像做很多东西的
想学舞蹈
乐器
手工
同时想把福州话学好
也把我的planing写了起来。。计划好了
可是希望有时间啦哈哈
如果由那些热心人士想向我指教指教的
当然我是非常的乐意与欢迎咯咔咔！

=(

2009-08-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

ya..
dats da look on my face now
after coming bek from pesta convo at DG

was having my simulasi for convo UKM,under PR..
standed for 5hours++
i even missed my chance to met jiangpeipei T.T
=lost a chance for me to boost myself.. haih..
but anyway its a gud experience for me
since dis is my 1st time having practical in such situation
quite liking it.. having another 1 dis tuesday ^^

putting too much responsibilities on my shoulders..
padanmuka if i get hurt cuz of overweight of pressure haha
guess its time for me to make sum choices..
n gving up sumpart..
it doesnt feel good when ppl starts teasing u n u have to hold ur anger n feelings..
actualli i was there..
not cuz i wan sth..
my intention is just to help..
cuz its one of the chinese activities in school
im onli 1 jafon..and i cnt duplicate myself into 3 or 4
juz helping n gving do let me feel the contenment..
yet getting scolding as return is reali not wat i was expecting..
i don like to c there are unhappy faces of ppl arounds just bcuz of me..
i help.. cuz i like the hepi environment a lot..
i like the smiles on ur faces~

realising 1 ting
*there is no point of explaning sumtimes.. and its beter for us to apologize n ask for forgiveness*
so i would like to apologize in public now..
"sorry for not replying ur msg-cuz i noe bz is not an excuse"
"sorry i dint reply ur msg for the 2nd time-cuz i noe its not an excuse again"
"and sorry again,cuz i dint explain to you at the 1st place,for why im not able to turn up.."
b4 readings on..
do take a deep breath..

inhale...

....

exhale...

....

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.....

.....

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ok..
now my turn to explain..

starting from last thursday..

6-9.8.09=trip to pulau pangkor
9-12.8.09=preparation and presentation for Minggu Satu Malaysia
13.8.09=perjumpaan persediaan majlis penutupan,seketriate intergrasi n perpaduan kaum
= traning for XX
= bsmm duty hour
14.8.09-=majlis penutupan Program Satu Malaysia
15.8.09 = went to a talk under anjuran PT UKM

and today..

wat im trying to explain here is..
actualli im not being able to turn up
cuz im reali quite bz for these weeks..
mayb u guys will not b seeing this..
but just i hope ppl can understand..
thats all..

gona finish my report now..

bek from pangkor

2009-08-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

finally bek from pangkor~
although don reali have a great trip,as wat i imagine b4 going
but its still a gud trip loh haha
happened many tings there~
we bought the same patern tshirt~(19 of them-haha gona look great when we wear it to class on tuesday XD)
oh ya..
i killed a poor bee by steeping on it,in the end ending up bengkak my leg wahaha
every1 are extremely nice to me during the trip
no matter guys.or gurls
malays,or non-malays~
getting a chance to noe each other more is indeed a gud ting
had reali great days over there XD

my mood r quite ok when im bek to my own kolej
till i realise i left my pack of used clothes onthe bus
OMG.. hp is out of batery,charger went crazy,don have my frens contacts were driving me crazy tat time..
geting -ve words from frens made me feel even HOT!(although i noe they dint means so la)
but tings got better after playing a malay game wif our seniors haha
athough i kalah teruk >.<
so i harap no offence yah~
tats alls for 2day
my way to my report +.+

Output after some reasearch

2009-07-31T19:17:00.002+08:00

juz surf on some of the clips on Youtube bout UKM PT..
n i found out..
wow..
it will b extremely grand on dat day..
3k++ ppl atending the event>.<
and the previous years performance was indeed high in quality!
it will b quite an contentment if we r involve in it haha

mayb i reali suites to speak in malay more lol~
my chinese sounded so weird +.+
gona enter the 2nd round for MC selection
hoho..
actualli dint reali expect myeseft to enter the 2nd round
mayb i boast too much about myself during the interview(死了，心虚>.<)
but anyway,将计就计
since this is reali a good experience for me to improve
have bunch of draft dat i have to memorize now..
including my coming exam(half way to go,omg @@)
reports..
planing..
n etc..
hope i can finish them by time..
all the best~

packed day~

2009-07-29T17:58:00.001+08:00

juz bek from my amali kimia's group discussion
haha guess wat..
5hours of long time discussion resulting in..
*jeng jeng jeng*
report which consist of objective,aparatus,and procudure wahaha
im gona rate our groups timemanagement--->5 -____-

finaly i can feel myself bzier lately..
satu malaysia is in progress
reports..
assignments..
exams...
pangkor trip..
this is gving me a feel of contentment..
sum of my frens said im even addicted to activities
haha me myself canhardly explain y XD

gona meet my members after 7pm..
having my interview for MC PT..
then going 心的牵引mia联谊会after dat~
all the best for my interview later >.<

心情..

2009-07-25T18:23:00.002+08:00

本来刚才心情并不是很好的
要写部落各。。可是尚不到网。。
好在冲凉过后心情好很多了

我也忘了自己什么时候
从以前很会把话讲得很婉转的我
变到现在有什么讲什么的鸡粪了
可能有时我会讲得有点难听-毕竟人就是不喜欢听到不好听的事实的嘛
但我认为我们因真诚对人
所以我选择了对人坦白-当然say the rite ting at the rite time la..
因为我希望别人同样会对我老实
有什么不满意的就当面告诉我好了
互相猜测只会把误会弄得更大更糟
往往感情会出现问题，不管爱情，友情，或是亲情
都是由猜测开始的。。
*所以开始对人坦陈吧。。*

讲到人性。。我不能不得感谢我的教授
因为就是今天上PR课时教授点醒了我。。
很多人常常说XX很现实。。YY很自私。。
但试问有哪一个人不是为了自己而生存下去的？
对！！人本来就是这样的
举个例子来讲：一栋房子失火了，每个人为了自己的生命拼了命从屋中跑了出来。。
可是当自己已安全后。。看见房子里的人又向火海跑了进去

看懂了吗？
当我们想帮助别人时，我们必须先考虑到自己的能力
而不是因为自私。。这是人性。。

最近我好像得罪到人了。。
虽然只是自己的猜测
但如果我真的没猜错
我希望。。
我能得到一个明白
而不想好像以前那样。。
错到不明不白。。
也不想浪费掉一段友谊
因为人要相遇本来就不简单

Heartless-

2009-07-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

*how could u b so heartless~~hoooooo~~*
finally ended our candidate meeting,resulting wif ahem ahem..
nvm laa at lease have a gud talk 2gether
introducing another new fren of mine
Amy,my com-mates
another nice person who is nice to talk to
haha

tired n sick wif the conection
server down again they claimed..
took me minutes juz to find the new 7 wonders of the world,swt..
n now i tink i cant proceed to the next task for my assignment le
darn it..

have a nice lunch wif kajai's frens..
kenal another lengzai
i forgot his name ad.. susah
haha but seems like a gud guy
gurls out there shld consider to score him haha

reali cnt attend for the meeting dis sunday le..
sori ahh sy
cuz no1 imform it to us early n we ad made an apointment
wif groups of around 1X ppl
manyak manyak paiseh ah kawan

果然开始被讨厌了。。

haha helo guys~

2009-07-24T19:32:00.002+08:00

juz came bek from dreamland haha
getting quite exhausted late..
haha but anyway quite contented wif da lifestyle la..

had an gathering wif or daddy mummy dis afternoon..
they r both veri nice ppl~
having nice seniors in our group of Publisity
every1 there r quite nice~
new frens~
i guess im going to b under the LAWATAN team for PUBLISITY haha

don have any conection for the whole evening
cnt do my assignments at all =.=
lucky tings is its working now haha
gona do my TEKNIK,REPORT,JAKSA REPORT,KIMIA AM adn etc
waseh @@ so much to do..
haha gona dine now~
having my great sate from my nice,cute fren YL~
n having candidates meeting at 9 later,keke

开始离开独自一个人的生活了。。

2009-07-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

getting not used to being alone like before anymore...
cuz previously..
im prefer more to be alone

being bz for the whole day..
woke up at 6sth
@@ walau hate to wake up dat early

having sum jobs to be done now
my report for rumah kayu
list of programes for Program Satu Malaysia
assignment for teknik alam dan sekitaran
phew~ and our exam is around the corner..

2day..
i guess i would b quite emo if im have nth to do..
due to sum unexplanable reasons..
gud tings is,my day does keep me bz enuf! haha
now the gap between new frens is brought to another closer level~ huhu
chinese food here we come!!!!

duno wat im craping about
juz noeing dat im veri tired now
n hope to go to bed~ haha
gudnitez

下雨天

2009-07-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

是不是又是我多心了？？
感觉好像有点怪怪的，这样的感觉还是头一次罢了
是在逃避吗？
我不知道~
有时候还蛮想对人温柔的
可是好像找不到那个对象呵呵。。

洗好了的衣服被无情的大雨浇湿了
呵呵真觉得这次的晒衣还挺像自己的
衣服都明明干了
都不懂自己在犹豫什么
迟迟不把衣服收进来
等到衣服都被雨淋湿了
才要从心来过
把衣服洗干净

机会是留给那些懂得把握机会的人罢了
不要让明明已经干了的衣服继续吊着
机会走了就是没了
请珍惜..^^

AnOtHeR rAnDoM pOsT~

2009-07-21T12:11:00.002+08:00

started to miss my roomate ad haha
his siao siao mia muka XD
bo bian,he went to johor for field work ma,for the whole week..
saw turtles,went snorkeling~
bad ting is he being bitten by sandflies,cham >.<

actualli its aint easy to find friends dat treat u sincerely..
ask its a materealistic world out there rite.
however lucky ting i tink i do find sum of them ^^

having my exam after next week already..
gona start to prepare for studies for my courses,meorising scientific names again @@
then after dat....
*TRIP TO PULAU PANGKOR* wahahah!!
but another sad ting is im going to miss my com nite..
whole team seems not too hepi with dat..
but bo bian la.. not cuz dat i wan to skip it rite..
*don let me c dat face +.+*

recently diam diam makan malay food nia..
sien till i wana die le..
everyday don reali can decide wat to eat leh..
hoping my chinese dinner wil come soon enuf la

boring..

2009-07-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

attended Public Relation class dis morning haha
actuali i don reali noe wat is it clearly when i pick it XD
to b honest,i don reali like it,yet i don hate it
so i will just take it as a try,in order to learn anotehr skill loo haha

haha meeting more n more ppl lately
mayb i do like socialing afterall XD
oh ya..
im being accepted as the publisity AJK of our UKM's pesta tanglung
haha hope it will b fun lah
about as the wakil cina for Secretriat integrasi dan perpaduan..
hmm no idea of wat to b done >.<
any1 willing to help me?

such a boring day here..
so when ppl get bored,we crap a lot
its my 3rd week here..
hmm..
don reali understand y do i care..
wat hapen to her/him..
who he/she talked to..
juz.. i nid to snap out of it..
im from another corner of the world..
i belong to another dimention..
*blur.. wth am i crapping*
y we nid to brea kour wings as we can fly free..
expecting more to come..
hoping more colours in life..
*do suprise me^^

nth much..

2009-07-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

you might think tats the real me now..
but wat i can say is..
take more time to noe me better bah haha..
i do accept who i am..
although i can act like cool as ice..
i can ask like tak apa for everyting else
but i chose the other way..
cuz i noe
i like friends...
i like socialing..
i like making people around me happy(sungguhpun i noe my way will scare all teh gurls away >.<)
but its ok..
for me to b juz a pei4 jiao3

clowns symbolised hepiness n fun..
but how many ppl ever b in thier shoes b4..
r they dat hepi n cheerfull as they look like??
i strongly feel dat we shld always tink from many aspect..
not to b a kepozi..
but..
sumtimes do care for others
how they feel.. how they tink..

i do tink more or less..
i am able to judge a person's personality well thru short time..
of cuz i do make wrong judgement sumtimes..
i am not dat *sohai sohai* as u guys c la.. haha ^^

regret cutting my hair short le..
now kind flat infront..
ppl call me sarawakean..
cham nia.. haih

minggu mesra pelajar of UKM

2009-07-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

hmm..
this the the onli week..
where i used my time.. dgn sepenuhnya..
3hours os slp everyday..
lasting for 1 whole week >.<

slping at 2am every nite n wake up at 430 for sivik classes
haha..
but anyway..
gud tings is i meet lots of frens la..
joined lots of activities..
most of them r friendly..
but sum might have sum eq problems laa

its my 1st day in class..
noed sum of my classmates..
all r nice s well lo.. haha
anyway hope tings gets beter
n my life will get much more interesting in further time

my last blog >.< gona hibernate soon looh haha

2009-06-27T03:04:00.000+08:00

haha had an tiring day..
finaly settled my tings..
got my pair of shoes finaly..
have all my document certified..
juz left packing for tomorow..
and off off here i go!!

while packing i saw pics of my past..
my frens..
n etc..
haha..
time do passes fast..
n im leaving for UKM 2mrw midnite..

at 1st thought of having s so-called smart look..
looks like it turned up to b a 'cute' look..
swt nia..
lol..
expecting the new experience n challenges ahead..
but still i do apreciate all the friends i have now..
do hope to keep in touch wif all of u..
try not to forget me thru ur busy lifes guys =]
gona miss my family..
especially my mum the most..
love her.. haha

SO FAREWELL..
if u reali nid to contact me.. text to 0715271530 bah

perasan betul..

2009-06-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

i start luking bek pictures more oftenly..
i read bek all the typings..
facebooks..
fs..
blogs..
hmm i thought tings shld b over..
but i cnt explain y im experiencing feelings lidis..
weird indeed..
mayb its a practice apart of my life le..

time to go..
time to say byebye..
still hope we will b able to b freinds forever lah.. haha

hohoho...

2009-06-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

gona flip another new chapter of my life soon..
it feels like traveling from an environment that im so used to for 20years..
n sudenly.. to another new place..

scolling thru the chapters dat i read thru..
from primary..
to secondary..
now to tertiary educations..
lots of sweet memories..
lots of biterness as well..
friends.. families.. lovers.. haha
always hope to go bek in time..
especially my secondary lifes..
every form i experienced..
i love everyting dat happened..
if just im given a chance to go thru again..
haha.. i will tell GOD:"yes i do.."

it is always enjoyable looking back..
i do smile oftenly..
as i noe i lead quite an interesting childhood..
to all my friends..
i love all of u guys..
although sumtimes i never express it ( as im shy of cuz ^^ )

seems like its time for me to let go..
i might regret for the tings i've never did..
mayb i hide it for such a long time n still keep everyting in me..
i don tink..
i will ever regret..
cuz i noe..
i do have dat STH once b4..
thank you everyone.. =]

the new arrival..

2009-06-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

Saudara/i,

TAWARAN KEMASUKAN SESI AKADEMIK 2009-2010

Dengan sukacitanya saya bagi pihak Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia mengucapkan tahniah kepada saudara/i dan seterusnya menawarkan tempat pengajian ijazah pertama bagi Sesi Akademik 2009-2010. Butir-butir tawaran adalah seperti berikut:

NO. PENDAFTARAN:A129421
FAKULTI:SAINS DAN TEKNOLOGI
PUSAT PENGAJIAN :SAINS SEKITARAN DAN SUMBER ALAM
PROGRAM PENGAJIAN:SARJANAMUDA SAINS DENGAN KEPUJIAN (SAINS SEKITARAN)
TAHUN PENGAJIAN:SATU
TEMPAT PENDAFTARAN:KOLEJ AMINUDDIN BAKI (B), UKM, BANGI
TARIKH PENDAFTARAN:28/06/2009 (08:00 PAGI - 13:00 PETANG)
YURAN KEMASUKAN :RM 1,455.00

haha 1st n foremost..
thx to ahye n popo for bobi-ing me to b selected for this course la..
im glad to b in this course.. which is full wif expectation n unknown future >.<
had quite an tired day 2day..
actuali i like the feelings of having lots of frens la..
dis time im going to leave PG for Kl le..
kinda bu she de u guys oso la.. haha
duno will any1 misses me hor.. kaka..
stop of these craps..
n i guess its time for me to prepare my tings le..

*reali hope dat i can help sum of u guys de.. not becuz of im try to sell sth..
juz i reali tink if does help..*

Im not alone? =]

2009-06-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

realize dat im living an extremely unhealthy lifestyle..
slp after 3am every midnite..
and onli wake up after 12pm everyday..
imagine dat.. haha

hmm spending my time well recently lah..
doing sum gud tings.. ^^
although my day time went well..
i do feel lonely sometimes..
haih..
tired.. but no place for me to have my rest..

i supoose im gona have a new start soon..
another new page in my live =)
new friends..
new environment..
new market hehe..
of cuz..
i will miss my friends..
* i will miss u guys!*
especially certian ones XD

say helo ~

glad to b in this environment..

2009-05-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

never felt so supported for such a long time..
actuali..
dis makes me feel beter then in love.. hoho
ty aunty uncle..
ty yang..
ty yang's mum~
ty lun..
ty z.hong..
ty every1..
u made me warm.. =)

i paid a visit to a teacher of mine 2day..
had quite a nice talk..
but the worst part of the conversation is when she asked me bout the-gf-ting = =..
1st time in my life.. an aunty encouraging me to start a relationship,swt swt
"find a gf.. n u wont b buging anymore la kid.."--swt nia
when i dont find her.. then she complained im bz.. @@

hmm..
bout relationship..
seriously im not luking foward for it bah..
as no expectation at all loh.. at lease not for now lo..
i used to live in fantasies..
i used to make lots of imaginations..
puting in lots of hope..
making tans of excuses..
but sumhow i realise..
sumtimes sth might seems gud, but doesnt mean tat i deserve it..
leave it for those who deserve it best bah ^^
B hepi~~

Making A Living?? @@

2009-04-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

I WONDER..
i work to live.. or live to work..
haha using most of my time working recently..
have to cover my depts..(im glad i covered it at last =.=)
my expenses..
etc etc etc..
although im tired n bz all the time..
sumhow i felt contented oso la.. haha..(rather wasting my time doing nth at all)
enjoy the 3days working at pc fair..
although i never tok so much,n tok to so many person in a single particular day b4..
making new frens is gud.. ^^
*ty team~ ty yiling,wendy,yushan,annie,joe,anne..*

i tink im losing my job soon oso la..
lol..
the emloyer is quite ok la..
at lease we get our pay clean..
too bad.. we spoilt the market.. T.T
planing to take a short rest..
then im going to fite for the last 4days..
GOGOGO!!

will it b beter to blur myself??

I DoN CaRe~~

2009-04-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

~bla bla black sheep have u any wool~
lots of nagging n negative discouragements lately hoho
however..
i don reali care wat they say.. wat they tink..
cuz i already noe wat i reali wan now..
life is colourful..
y shld i always paint it dull all the time..
i wan colours in my life >.<-----time to unlock myself..

A LESSON FROM THE BDT CLASS
full-bum uncle SAYS~:
to b succesful in certain careers,there all more then 20secret ways..
1.open ur mouth
2.
3.
.
.
.
.
20.still,open ur mouth.. make the 1st step.. lol
(actualy there is no any special tactics la..juz,we shld always try.. avoid from making ur own assumptions n etc.. take a try.. cuz u will never noe wats coming behind..)
*ppl who tinks too much.. ppl who tink far further in front.. most of the time they will end up staying bek on the same point,as no action is taken due to the fear n so-called assumption n hypothesis they made*

Grr...

2009-04-09T13:30:00.000+08:00

freakingly bo song now..
i hate it..
when u don plan tings well
i hate it..
when u always tink u r always rite
i hate it..
when u deny another person without opening urself to others

walau eh..
u r no longer a 18-year-old teenager..
plz do act like an adult..
n plz..
do care for ur family members..
don ever do tings without taking care of ur family members' feelings..
stop puting ur ownself as the 1st priority?

going to attend my convo for my BDT lesson dis evening
ty for those who r willing to attend dis evening..
however..
ppl tat i hope to attend will never turn up,other than in my dreams..
haha

BDT: Business Develop Traning

i wish i have more then 24hours.. >.<

2009-04-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

haha quite bz wif my life recently..
spend most of my time outside..
working wif my dad..
went all around..
find bek some old aunties auunteis >.< (they still remember me)
during nite time..
spend my time working as a promoter again..
after work.. hang up wif my frens till 2sth every midnite = = (how healthy i am eh..)

actuali i hate staying at home..
hearing all kind of nagging..
not cuz i did anyting wrong..
juz.. because of their bad mood..
they express all their anger on me? @@

n now..
im quite hepi wif my life..
n im quite anxious bout the new life tat im going to go through soon..
hmm
however i realize im running from sth recently..
however running not the solution..
keeping myself bz is not a gud solution indeed..
the day should come.. face it >.<

hmmm product on promotion >.<

2009-03-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

exhausted.. >________<

2009-03-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

i've been bz recently..
no onli handle my own tings..
i oso nid to handle my sister's studies
wOOt..

can barely open my eyes while typing now XD
hmm..
wat to say har..
i gave an okok eh speech 2day loh..
realize i improved a little again kaka
at lease i gain much more claps then b4 lor
muahaha

still..
i belum setle my upu tings...
swt ah...
have to finish them by 2mrw..
do hope i have the time T.T
going BM 2mrw gok ah......

Reprograming My Brain ^^

2009-03-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

so..
decision used to drive me crazy everytime..
especially important ones..
haha but sumhow
i find out tat..
since i get my result
till da day i fiiled in the form for the courses tat im trying to apply..
i can feel tat im quite calm..
haha..
this is soooo-not-me..
mayb i realise its sth important in my life..
haha..
but anyway..
its the government's choice to send me,wherever they wan me to go >.<

hmm
more or less~
i feel tat i grew a little throughout the housemeeting n BDT classes..
i met ppl sharing the same dreams as i have..
working in an extremely possitive environtment..
an senio of mine said dis b4..
*always make a choice.. b4 an opportunity comes*
n im glad.. tat i did a rite 1..
loving it~~

*HAO! HEN HAO! FEIIIIIII CHANG HAO! YES!!*

btw ty pt for lending me ur time to bring u along
apreciate it >.<

C.O.M.P.L.I.C.A.T.E.D.

2009-03-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

haha..
usualy.. im the person who spotted other ppl involving in an accident..
but this is my 1st time of my life..
experiencing my family members involving in a tragic..
its was 4.35pm as i remembered..
my bro recieved a call from my sister..
its was an accident involving 6 cars..
an emergencybreak,
starting from the 1st vehicle is the major cause to dis tragic accident..
1 lucky ting is..
my car is located at the 5th..
although my car is damaged quite badly..
but still im grateful cuz my family experience onli minor bruises..
however dad experience minor bone fraction..
caused by the strong vibration while handling the steering..

actaulli today..
its quite a gud day for me..
went to kepala batas wif an old fren on mine..
had dinner there..
meet his friendly family members..
haha quite warm >.<
den we meet up sum friends at desa damai..
spending time chating bout tings we r interested in common..
haha
hueytheng is rite lo..
gud tings gets beter when its shared
hoho..
trying to tink possitive from now onwards..
BYE BYE to negative tinking..

D.A.Y.S.

2009-03-09T15:43:00.000+08:00

its always raining recently..
i used to LOVE rainy days..
haha..
cuz its windy..
its makes me feel comfortable..
n of cuz..
rainy days make me feel the calmness..

however ever since i started working..
HoHo..
*~rain rain go away~come again another day~*
u noe wat i mean..

tings..
r buging me recently..
haha..
mayb its bcuz of the result 2mrw..
mayb its bcuz i fear for my future..
mayb its bcuz.. I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE..
i realize..
there will not b any changes..
if i dont pull out my 1st step..
no matter in any aspect..
as i will juz always b an zero..

ppl may look down at me..
ITS OK WITH ME!
ppl may tink: he's never gona b able to do it
ITS OK WITH ME AS WELL!!
haha noe wat..
try to tease me more..
but still i will thank u for tat..
as im gona convert such anger..
to motivation..
to success..
juz watch me =]

p/s: if u r reading dis.. lengzai.. gv me wing, i dont ask for drumstick la dui..
juz do me a litle favour nia cnt meh.. i will b meeting u after 2mrw la.. haha don miss me so
much >.<

how much i understand myseft..

2009-03-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

i spend most of my time 2day..
thinking bout lots n lots of tings..
i thought of my personality..
bout my coming stpm result..
my work..
my sister..
my family..

1stly..
i realise im juz too simple..
im a simple person..
doing simple n ordinary tings everyday..
don have any special talents or abilities..
yet i don have an atractive apearance..
i don speak well..
i don come up wif gud ideas
but i hate myself for complaning this complaning tat..
since i noe my weakness..
i shld have juz put in sum effort to help boost up myself ma..
but i dint do anyting..
haha.. u c..
how weird i am..

actually im luking foward..
to met sumbody..
who is able to help me noe more about myself
AhHhhH..
juz cut of the blaming n start working..

CoMpArIsM

2009-03-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

its quite tiring n stressfull..
when ppl starts comparing urself to another person..
its like when ur mum
comparing ur academics to ur neighbour who is beter then u r..

but tings r worse..
when u compare urself to sum1 beter then u are lol..
sendiri cari pasal..
hmm
but i often do tings lidis..
mayb because of several reason i guess..

i don like the way it feels..
when the person tat i care noes tat im not doing well..
no matter in work or academics..
although they usualy do console me la..
but still..
deep in my heart i don feel gud..
cuz i hope wat i did will make them proud..
but i don tink i did badly..
in fact i tink im quite ok,i guess..
but sum how i cnt figure out y i cnt performe well usualy..
weird indid..

a tired day for me..
but 1ting tat makes my day lovely tat it rained..
hoho..
love the breeze..

is it me the one who is tinking too much eh..

ChoSing The Rite Path?

2009-03-02T18:05:00.001+08:00

when a friend of mine told me..
tat he's disapointed of me becuz im still cant b able to make the rite choice..
hmm..
u noe wat..
not every1 can do tings like they wish to..
cuz of all kind of reasons..
n especialy during desprate times..
juz ppl don b too hang3fok4 as u do..
i nid cash..
to do many tings..
i nid cash..
to improve sum qualities of me..

sumtimes do let me have my own decision.. stop gving me stress..
im tired..

recently i spend most of my time staying on bed..
the doctor told me its bcuz of the weather..
every1 is geting sick..
when i c my dad fall sick..
then followed by me..
then my sis..
i praied..
"God.. stop dis pain.. i don wan to c any1 close to me.. n those who i care for fall sick.. no more.."
of cuz for these days..
i don juz lay there for nth..
i thought a lot..
i thought of my passes..
i thought of those who care for me..
my frens.. my parents.. my siblings..
thanks a lot..
i thought of my future..
the sad part is..
i c nth..
*tats awful*
i thought of improving..
but i c no efort n improvement in me..
lol..
for the pass 20years..
i did nth tat i can make my parents proud of..
not even myselft haha
haiz haiz haiz..
when will it b the day for me to put out a new step..
hoho

The Past Few Days

2009-02-20T22:41:00.001+08:00

actuali its quite a suprise
when i noe tat there's reali ppl viewing my blog haha
cuz i never expect any1 else viewing it
thx for the suport wo >.<

haha finaly im bek to my lovely blog again..
after 5days of "holiday"
hmmm
for the past few days..
if u ask me..
how can i discribe the days..
let me tell u..
its AWFUL
lolx

actualy i fell sick for the past few days..
they call it fever+dehyration loo haha
i cant reali afford to go to work
as my body is too weak..
i cant even eat the tings i like..
not cuz simply its unhealthy..
its bcuz i don reali have the appetite to eat anyting..
wat i did at home
nothing much bt juz spending my time siting there..
laying..
n..
hmm i guess tats all >.<

its the 5th day now..
i guess im 90% recovered from the illnes..
at lease i don have to spend most of my time
suplying stock to IndahWater..
*awful experience.. making my legs weak +.+*
anyway im glad to b ok now..
going to work bek 2mrw..
hehe..
no more wasting time..
and..
thx a lot..
to those who care for me..
for their care..time.. n suport XD

MaKiNg Th3 RiGhT cHoIcEs~

2009-02-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

had a long talk wif XT last nite..
she showed me some her hand-made crystals~
hmm seriously i duno how to difrentiate a real ccrystal from a fake 1 >.< style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">*for more details? i cnt tell.. i promised her not to tell any1 ad >.<*
poor gal indeed..
but she is quite brave..
she have her own way of tinking
she made a choice tat she tinks its rite..
n tats y she chose U.. ahem ahem..
*so lucky of u eh WL~ to have such a gud gf.. KEKEZ..*

hmm..
i guess..
its not a gud hour
not even a gud time for me..
cuz i noe.. when u have much tings to deal wif..
no matter work,exams,families,asignments
choices will onli make u feeling more fustrated and stressfull~
n ppl starts making the wrong decision..
taking the wrong steps..
haha..
*stay cool always.. and try to avoid from making a decision in a rush*

my 1st pay from MAXIS ^^

2009-02-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

sudah lama dint log into my blog ad..
haha..
ty for those who is always folowing my blog la..

especially mr.N >.< (i finaly update m blog la.. as u wish -.-)
hmm so its valantine 2day eh..
hoho..
i wasted a chance to earn money.. T.T
the JackerTeam takes its holiday cuz every1 is on an off..
all went dating ma..
sy+lp~
wh+sf~
wl+xt~
kl+ck~
me myself?
hmm i went to youyichen lo..
cnt reali eat well cuz was not in a gud mood juz now lolx
the environment makes me feel even worse loo

haha got a news..
from Sky..
sumhow he told me tat..
our x-supervisor is trying to drag our salary
i tink most probably we will not b geting our pay le la
WuUwUu T.T (there goes my petrol money+expenses)
i don tink will tell dis news to others seng.. or else it will crush thier last hope@@
anyway at lease i got my salary,for the sales tat i did few days ago la
haha
*LONG LIVE SUPER ENTERPRISE*

Knew sth about myseft..

2009-02-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

actaully seriously..
i hate being too free..
i hate it when i have nth to do..
n juz waste my time lidat..
i cnt stand tat feel..
n i can feel im going to burst anytime when im in such condition..
noe y?
cuz i tink life should be meaningfull..
we r responsible in making of life colourful.. n meaningfull..

feeling quite down the whole afternoon when i realise i cnt settle my sales report today.again..
i hate tings being delayed.. lol
i suppose i will onli get my salary on dis monday bah haha..
but anyway tings turned beter..
when i start doing sales.. in a nitemarket in paritbuntar..
tings went well when i did the 1st 2 sales..
wuhuuu.. the spirit in me is burning hot ROAR!!

however..
the greed in me aroasen..
n i lied 2 customers.. by gving them the wrong info..
at the end i get 2sales..
total of 4sales for 2day..
but..
my heart doesnt feel gud at all..
in fact..
i felt awful.. n extremely guilty..
damn..
do i nid to lie juz for 2sales? LOL

so..
when i reached home..
then 1st tings i did is..
i called back the 2 customers..
n i explain the whole plan again..
i was going to ask them to cancel the package actually..

but u noe wat?
tings turned up the other way..
after 15mins..
my customers called me bek..
n they decide to take the package..
wow~ tat was out of my expectation..

haha..
anyway.. i learned a lesson 2day..
don ever try to tell lies in saling..
juz b urselft..

Feeling Worse Then Yesterday...

2009-02-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

i had a bad day~
blablabla..
feeling terriblely awful...
hiting the worse sales among all..
wat the..
bo moood..
rasa im reali not ok..
no matter in my job..
or even in other feilds..
haha..
to the hell i go..

BaD MoOd InDeEd -_______-

2009-02-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

hmmm..............
wat to say leh..
its had been quite a bad day for me..
i duno in wat way la..

mayb..
went for work.. n aparently i onli get 1sales for whole day..
i am feeling extremely tired working as a maxis delaer now..
got sales.. no salary.. work for wat woh.. haha..
hoping to get a new job mayb..
but have no job in mind loh temporaly..
i don like the feeling..
when i reach home.. my mum n my sibling will ask about my sales..
*how could i tell them tat thier son/eldest brother is doing so badly.. lol(furthermore i might not get any pay..)*

my ogawa 'bf' came 2day as well..
he juz returned from Sarawak..
n now curently working in QueensbayMall
he belanja me n kailun to eat at 600cc lo..
i called..
how i discribe it leh..
it looks kinda like food for dag.. got bakhu..pork..
hmm watever is it la..
it tasted terrible..
i called sth called peanut milk..
tasted.. hmm..
*special* lol~

i got my new glasses 2day loo
hmm..
sum comented tat its quite ok..
sum said its not suitable for me..
haha but duno y..
i seems to belive the 2nd comment..
lol..
reali so not suites me ahh haha..

anyway..
2day suks..
hate it hate it...

@@ how come lidat geh...

2009-01-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

haha..
actualli..
wat i wana say is..
im ezly influenced..
by the ppl around me..
no matter a guy.. or a gal..(but of cuz they muz at lease mean sth to me la..)
haha..
noe y??
cuz when they r sad... im sad...
when they r hepi.. i feel hepi as well..
when they r doing well.. i will work hader as well to do well..
lol..
how weird am i ehh haha..

a LiTtL3 DiFr3nT fRoM b4..

2009-01-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
a little difrent in this new year compared to the previous years..
i never went bai nian by the will of my own b4 actualli..
not last time..
haha.. cuz usauly i will juz folow my parents..
to visit their parent's house..
nth much..
i never get the chance to visit my own frens loo haha..

but anyway..
tings seems r taking a change..
n i got the opotunity to experience more new tings..
new jobs..
i tink..
this is considered a gud sign for me bah..
at lease im learning new tings rite..
haha..
so much for a new year for me~~

thE DoN'ts oF MiNe..

2009-01-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

sudenly rasa sendiri so streesfull..

sudenly rasa myselft could hardly move any further..

haha after working

i realize i hate to eat alone..

i hate to look into the mirror

*always shocked myself from looking it XD*

i always run away from reality..

i can ezly get influenced to the environment..

im lack of confidence..

i nid to do a lot of tings to make myselft to gain confidence~

im not gud in consoling ppl..

i hate falling down..

im not gud in facing decisions..

im not gud in planing..

i don have big dreams..

i don come wif great brilliant ideas..

my calculation sucks..

im too skinny..

im not gud in speeching..

i don express my feeling/wat i tink well..

bla bla bla~

haha tings get worse..
when i wan to treat a person well..
mayb sumtimes im tinking from the wrong aspect..
i made myseft filling so small.. T.T

hmm..
"no way no way.. dis cnt be.."
if u plan to help a person.. 1st help urself..
if u r planing to influnce sum1.. 1st justify urselft..
if u r planing to cheer sum1.. b hepi 1st.. then influence the other

everybody is special..

and no one is ordianry..

reali hope to help u sumtimes..

but wat i can do is too limited >.<

do try to b hepier..

FiNaLy iM bEk hOm3~

2009-01-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

wahaha..
2 days in Teluk Intan..
nth but boring~~
wat i did there is juz:
slping.. naping.. watchign tv..
eat.. bath..
nth else le..
sien till die ahh..

but anyhow..
here i am.. home sweet home..
da journey took us aroudn 2.30hours onli..
way earlier from wat i expected lo..
actually i noe my dad don reali wans to come bek geh..
but cuz all of us is so eager to go home le..
since he onli c his siblings once a year..
although sumtimes he is mean and bad..
but..
felt kinda pity for him..
sori la dad..
A veri Hepi Chinese New Year to u har..

Gong Xi Fatt Chooi~

2009-01-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

it's 30th of the lunar calendar 2day..
at 1st..
i was not planing to go to work 2day geh..
however after several thoughts..
i went..
for the sake of my salary..
although its onli rm100++ onli la..
and i dn1 to stay at home oso..

practically..
i went.. n did no sales la..
but 1 lucky ting is..
i make frens wif some ppl..
noe a gal from focus point lo.. ( my fren wana kill me for tokign to her lol)
geting closer wif those maxis gals la.. quite nice to tok to de actually..
n noe a bit deeper about sum1.. a staff of maxis as well la..
have quite a nice lunch time wif him in KFC..
*chicken again~ lololol*

actually i quite like the job im working now..
everyting is nice..
da staff is nice..
including Sarah,Siti,Navin,Nurul,Mimi bla bla bla
n pay is ok..
+i can noe lots of ppl..
c difrent fresh faces..
juz 1 major problem..
NO SALARY?

anyway..
i went home after work..
and then my family n I went to my grandma's house lo..
don reali like the environment at 1st..
but at lease tings get beter after sum time..
my uncle is marring a Vietnamese dis particular nite..
although the ceremony is not grand..
but its meaningful enuf lo..

after tat..
i went to my mum's gan1 ma1's house lo..
long time dint meet HueyTheng..
chat wif her about her life there..
ppl if furthering her studies in England for Law..
haha.. chalenging eh..
but now her bf is in Aus..
imagine how they conect.. XD
even ate laksa there la.. haha..
honestly.. my grandma makes a beter laksa..
*shhh....*

i don like it when my mum n my dad being in 1 same car..
bcuz..
whenever my dad drives..
cuz not even sampai 5mins..
my mum will b starting making noises..
'don drive so fast~ carefull wif the car behind~ bla bla bla.."
den..
kAboOm!
the war explode n they start !$&%&#(*%-ing
sien nia..

2mrw..
im going bek to my grandma's house(my dad's side)
its located at TelukIntan..
actualy its kinda far..
n we will b dparting in the afternoon..
it will b hot geh..
if jam.. even worse lo..
my dad said tat we will b spending 2 days there..
haiz..
surely.. definately.. indeed..
im going to b bored to death..
cnt on9..
n surely i will hear my parents quarel geh..
reali spoiling every1's mood nia..
sien ah sien ah!!
so much for HEPI CHINESE NEW YEAR..

R.I.P JaFoN ^^

2009-01-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

ok now...
juz recieve a great news..
from my manager..

yuanlai..
my supervisor was always zhi1liang2-ing..
as we r under him..
means allof our salary..
is under him nia..
as he is gone now..
99% we r not getting our salary..
comeon guys~~
lend me ur hands n clap for us~~
the greatest MAXIS team ever!! haha

now wana curse pun bolat ad lol
spending almost rm1000+ to buy a lesson?
quite worth eh..
haha...
*speechless ah.. speechless..*

pArAlYzEd...

2009-01-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

haha.. we have to start working on the 3rd day of chinese new year??
lol reali bolat ad..
now.. our supervisor cant b contacted..
wat will hapen to my pay for the sales i did for January..
*ki chia ad.. ki chia ad.. lol*

haha..
sudenly bo lat now..
rasa chinses new year have lost its meaning..
no longer have such expectation..
like i always do when i was still a kid..
bolui ahh..
huhu..

b0rInG~~ @@

2009-01-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

si gui kailun bo go work again ad..
haiz.. went dating wif his bf again le @@.. (complicated relationship they have ah..)
recently..
da whole team went sick..
1st w.hsien..
then w.chien..
follewed by kailun..
me..
and 2day? w.lun.. lolx..
all sufering from sorethroats..
*thx to food from mamak' s stalls haha*

since chinese new year is aproaching..
seems tat the mall is much packed wif customers..
and of cuz.. our sales r geting qutie beter looo

taught da malay gals chinese..
swt nia..
sum of my frens make fun of them..
for an example:
'lao ban,ni bang wo kai line..wo gei ni gan(orange)..'
but.. ahem.. if u reali pronounce it..
it sounds like...
SWT... haha..

nth special reali hapened 2day actually..
yurensheng belanja me eat sweets n sum tidbits loo
spending my time teman my "bf"
went to bank..
went to eat..
swt..
he even invite me to go eat at his house..
of cuz i rejected.. haha..
DANGEROUS wat..

reached home quite early lo 2day..
last day working 2mrw..
n here comes my holiday~~
(but still i belum buy my newyear clothers--bo salary ma...)

boring ahhhhhhhh

I'm Once Nth Before..

S.I.S.T.E.M

O.O

-SHORT,FIRM,TheEnd-

Happy Birthday Dad =)

莫名其妙的伤感

advices anyone?

9.5.2011

1.29a.m.

开始重新规划，设立我的短期目标~

29.4.2011(Life)

A refresh of memories..

Sorry because it's a no..

There's no undo button in life..

无聊与平凡

我们都没有资格说累

知足常乐

沉默是金，无话可说便不须加以解释，保持沉默又有何不对呢？

体验

莫名的感动

There's no1 to talk to when i needed one.

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一個男人在外工作20年，終於要回家了，老闆問他：你是要20年的工資還是要3句忠告？(來自網路的分享)

哈哈终于洗牙了~！

家

失去。收获

又是好一段时间没上来了~

方便自己参考~

女人只有和成熟的男人在一起才会幸福.........

感谢每一个人 =)

虽然很多事情都变了，至少回忆依然不变 =）

！！

Amin Com Night 2010

它结果还是和我预料的发生一样 =）笑一笑~ KeEp MoViNg FoWaRd~

选男友跟选鞋子一样，好看的鞋子不一定本质好 xD

我会过得好好的

无奈的心疼

等待

心开始淡了

如何让你们的另一半在乎你。。

小小领悟^^

心里最亲的人，竟然是暗伤我的最厉害的人

告诉你，你对我有多重要

哦..

(#$*&(%&#%*

我回来了。。

补不回的错。。

.........

雨天。。

haha~ 某某..果然她和你很像。。

感想。。

超白目 ><''

好一个发现。。

终于。。它还是结束了。。

outgoing wif my siblings =)

another ramdom post of mine =)

为了留名而作，还是为了做而名？

感想

a nice sunday =]

=(

bek from pangkor

Output after some reasearch

packed day~

心情..

Heartless-

haha helo guys~

开始离开独自一个人的生活了。。

下雨天

AnOtHeR rAnDoM pOsT~

boring..

nth much..

minggu mesra pelajar of UKM

my last blog >.< gona hibernate soon looh haha

perasan betul..

hohoho...

the new arrival..

Im not alone? =]

glad to b in this environment..

Making A Living?? @@

I DoN CaRe~~

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